No

I'm sorry for your loss

@Deleted User
No. She had a emergency abortion.

Oh.

Were you there?

Ya. I held her hand. I held him. We had some drama that night involving her mother which made things worse. It was a shit night

"I held him"

Fucking hell that sounds really gross sorry.

Not like a bad way.

But the fact that you held your stillborn aborted son.

Yeah.

What'd he look like?

I reached a point where my job is extremely dangerous, I will probably be dead in 5 years. But for some reason I don't fear death, I'm doing what I love and if I die than I die doing what I loved.

But what hurts is being away from my family. I'm an adult and moving out soon, but I love my mom and dad and worry about them constantly. I see my family in my dreams every night and often see my dead grand parents. My dad recently beat cancer and my mom has diabetes.

I have pictures. There at my moms. She framed his stuff. Ex kept his ashes

Fucking hell Ron Perlman looksl ike Will Ferrel @Deleted User

Wait pics?

Oh jeez.

Ron Perlman looks like Thanos fucked will ferrel

That sounds a bit disturbing to me.

It gets easier @country doggo

Ya.

As that deerman story?

Huh?

Literally started seeing demons and hearing voices. I'd have a 5 minute conversation with myself out loud and not even realize it

Oof that's a good choice man

Tbh there has been days where I've woke up and been legitimately disappointed that I woke up and didn't just die in my sleep.

I started incorporating my hallucinations into my 3D art

This one was all about guilt

Also discord compression is fuckiewuckie

@country doggo
What sort of drugs?

Eh

man if it wasn't for my middle school bullies i would have been a tranny and probably killed myself by now

don't do atheism kids

@Hansoof I do atheism hard

I'm agnostic

honestly i would have been a depressed fuck if it wasn't for my pastor

Also I drank alot

sometimes you gotta let things go and never give up

Wut

I almost drank myself to death and vomited blood, honestly not a bad way to go

I uh