And picking up exercise

And being talented in many fields

When I escaped the realm of being a minimum wage cuck life got better

After my son died, I broke up with my ex and I had my metal break down. I lost my job, I was constantly angry, I was on the verge of being homeless. There is a bridge in a park where the trains cross over the park and into the city. Underneath it is a river that has do not swim signs because it has a powerful undercurrent and is deep as fuck.
Bought a chain from home depot and got a cinder block. My plan was to leave a note saying I left the country so my family wouldnt think I ended it. I was going to walk the tracks and either get hit by the train or tie my belt around my neck, loop the chain around the buckle and jump off with the cinder block.

Got hungry and decide to have pizza as my last meal. Love pizza. Sitting in the park I got thinking about what I was doing and how much id miss the things id love. The people I cared about. The things id never get to do again. The things I would miss out on. Who would take care of my cat? Who was going to be there for my friends? After a while I ended up driving home and passing out on the couch at my grandparents. I got a job. I picked myself up. I got better. I have another son. It sometimes hurts to hold him cause I remember my first. But I'm strong, all because I wanted a fucking pizza.

Hol up.

You had a kid?

And he died?

How fucking old are you?

27

This happened when i was 24

@bdog that's a nice story

Thank you for telling

How'd your kid die?

Stillborn

@bdog damn

Life certainly can be a sack of shit to a lot of people

Sorry to hear that

Ouch, I thought stillborn babies killed the mom too?

@bdog I feel for you bro

No

I'm sorry for your loss

@Deleted User
No. She had a emergency abortion.

Oh.

Were you there?

Ya. I held her hand. I held him. We had some drama that night involving her mother which made things worse. It was a shit night

"I held him"

Fucking hell that sounds really gross sorry.

Not like a bad way.

But the fact that you held your stillborn aborted son.

Yeah.

What'd he look like?

I reached a point where my job is extremely dangerous, I will probably be dead in 5 years. But for some reason I don't fear death, I'm doing what I love and if I die than I die doing what I loved.

But what hurts is being away from my family. I'm an adult and moving out soon, but I love my mom and dad and worry about them constantly. I see my family in my dreams every night and often see my dead grand parents. My dad recently beat cancer and my mom has diabetes.

I have pictures. There at my moms. She framed his stuff. Ex kept his ashes

Fucking hell Ron Perlman looksl ike Will Ferrel @Deleted User

Wait pics?

Oh jeez.

Ron Perlman looks like Thanos fucked will ferrel

That sounds a bit disturbing to me.

It gets easier @country doggo

Ya.

As that deerman story?