I reached a point where my job is extremely dangerous, I will probably be dead in 5 years. But for some reason I don't fear death, I'm doing what I love and if I die than I die doing what I loved.

But what hurts is being away from my family. I'm an adult and moving out soon, but I love my mom and dad and worry about them constantly. I see my family in my dreams every night and often see my dead grand parents. My dad recently beat cancer and my mom has diabetes.

I have pictures. There at my moms. She framed his stuff. Ex kept his ashes

Fucking hell Ron Perlman looksl ike Will Ferrel @Deleted User

Wait pics?

Oh jeez.

Ron Perlman looks like Thanos fucked will ferrel

That sounds a bit disturbing to me.

It gets easier @country doggo

Ya.

As that deerman story?

Huh?

Literally started seeing demons and hearing voices. I'd have a 5 minute conversation with myself out loud and not even realize it

Oof that's a good choice man

Tbh there has been days where I've woke up and been legitimately disappointed that I woke up and didn't just die in my sleep.

I started incorporating my hallucinations into my 3D art

This one was all about guilt

Also discord compression is fuckiewuckie

@country doggo
What sort of drugs?

Eh

man if it wasn't for my middle school bullies i would have been a tranny and probably killed myself by now

don't do atheism kids

@Hansoof I do atheism hard

I'm agnostic

honestly i would have been a depressed fuck if it wasn't for my pastor

Also I drank alot

sometimes you gotta let things go and never give up

Wut

I almost drank myself to death and vomited blood, honestly not a bad way to go

I uh

Put a battery in the ocean?

If I die I want to die fighting Arabs in the desert

@country doggo wasting away at a young age and not seeing the joy of being a grandparent is doing yourself a disservice

my grandpa went out the best way

seeing his grandkids succeed in life before he past

he died with a smile on his face

Dying in this truck would be pretty badass, the camera would automatically trigger if I flew off a cliff. I requested that if I die the clip be played at my funeral.

why, why throw away your precious life for a comedic gag

Imagine *twilight of the thunder gods* blasting over the speakers as I fly off a cliffside mad max style and go out on a fiery blast

I wouldnt choose this obviously

When I was in the army I about blew my brains out. I was tired of being away, tired of doing shit for people who hated me. I didnt wear my IOTV plates out on our last patrol and we got ambushed and all I could think of was how fucking retarded I was. Bullets cracked past me and I watched on of my closest friends there eat a bullet. His funeral was one of the hardest parts of my life and swore to him I would live for both of us. Kept me from just ending it a couple times and I like to think hes watching over me.

Crashes just happen