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I always cancelled dates and neglected her
I realized i had fucked up in the last month or so but it was too late
We are still together but will break up when I return home
It wouldn't have worked out long term anyway because her parents were strict Muslims
But it could have been a better summer fling if i wasn't brainwashed
What were your feelings towards her?
Loved her to bits but hid it very
Well
it's a damn shame
there's a few elements of trp that I can confirm from personal experience are true
but most of it is bullshit
I don't think I'll ever recover from it to be honest
I feel the same way, man. Now about OCD.
Do you have compulsions or is it Purely Obsessional?
compulsion
always had OCD
used to spend hours doing compulsions
If I may ask, what compulsions?
I'm also generally obsessional
Only if you're comfortable sharing them
repeating the same word
typing and then deleting thing
*things
I see. Are you on medications/therapy?
neither
been on medication and therapy
but my OCD is pretty manageable now
mainly just Pure O these days
I have Pure O, and probably some mild compulsions, got diagnosed in 2016 after a panic attack. What I have found out is, that I hold emotions with a tight grip in my mind. I can't let them go. I associate negative emotions with pleasurous highs sometimes, like a sadist or masochist would.
Whenever I have a bad day, I start obsessing about things. About everything. I'm 20 and I've genetic balding. I keep obsessing about how I'll look and how I look right now. I've an autoimmune condition known as ankylosing spondylitis and I keep obsessing about that too. On a similar vein, trp thinking sometimes reassures me about my obsessions.
I take medications, and I converse with a guy who's pure O and also who's an author as well is very functional and whom I want to emulate. But sometimes the trp thoughts linger back and I go back to the same person I was on trp.
I have difficulties typing my thoughts, and English isn't my first or second language, so apologies.
Anxiety disorders are tough
Mainly because they fuck up your perception of reality
Definitely
Have you visited exredpill subreddit?
Yeah
Not much there
Th stickies are quite good. But yeah recent activities are scarce.
Is this chat alive again?
I was actually thinking