You're in college? 2-year or 4 year?

@Happy Humble Hermit

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What are you major in, bro?

Guess

@Rockets my parents had me diagnosed with aspergers back then... of course, they saught out the psychiatrist that agreed with them so take that with a mountain of salt, espacialy as later pschologists and such disagreed

Computer Science?

Engineer?

Yes

Awesome. I used to go to 2 year college for it but things when downhill.

I'm trying to get out of being unemployed.

it's probably like, I don't define myself as any ONE thing you know? I read philosophy when I was young, and remember defining myself as a Stoic, vs hedonist, but I've become something else in my old age that the old definitions might help understand, but not completely. After youve crossed some lines and boundaries, I feel like there's just even more boundaries to break

@Dango_chan HHH was computer science but now he's teaching.

Job market is shit in Detroi.t

i think it was just high intelligence (psychologists did take an IQ test on me, all that ican say, i dont know what my IQ is, but its to high to be measured by the standart test which only goes up to 130) plus depression.

@Redneo screw psychiatrists on most counts, unless you think you want to be a lab rat for fun, stick with good old fresh air, diet, exercise etc. They tried to give me Prozac after I told them I had just given up MJ, I was like you guys are f'n quacks!

@Rockets do you agree project-work is the best for proving to employers you rock?

and im actualy gald to have suffered (well, i still am to a degree, its recoursive, but... i can deal now) clinical depression. Cause, guess what, once youve been through that, there is nothing that will throw you of

@Rockets well psychiatrists are actualy okay. Psychologists and social workers, now THEY are terrible

@machtyn absolutely, anything you can SHOW them, actual web services, apps, whatever. It's good to be able to answer technical questions with technical speak too

@Rockets and there is a BIG differenece between psychology and psychiatry. Psychology is mental, psychiatry is physical

@Rockets yeah i got the technical speak down but i honestly plan on just applying to a bunch of jobs every 1-2 years just to stay sharp in interviewing and what the industry is looking for

and my clinical depression was NOT a mental illness at all. its physical

anyone successfully quit caffeine? i am on day 1 and have an insane headache and super sleepy

@machtyn interviewing is great experience, anytime I switched companies I would interview with 5 or so in the same time-span

@Rockets yes!

need to make sure i'm on the top of my game

Caffeine is my lord

but some instituions i visited for at ime supposed to help with such stuff, yeah, you were actualy talking to social workers reporting to psychiatrists.

and if i took her seriously, i would be dead now.

@Kazemaru i drank way too much lol so that is why i am just quitting

don't hop too much though unless the place is just really bad, stick around until you feel your ready for bigger challenges

@Rockets yeah no i try to stay with one company for at least 3 years

https://youtu.be/skrxcVnNdCQ

like, she absolutly denied the physical

BEAUTIFUL!

every 3-5 years i bounce and try to make states too

Many people in the area of psychology give me the vibe of being mind-body-dualists

One of this days I must give a break to my lord too. Someday... But not today!

And in fact i specificly asked this one

and she confirmed to me

that she believes

If someones personality changes after having a metal rod rammed through his brain, thats purely due to psychological trauma, nothing to do with braindamage

@Redneo dealing with depression is an art, I think the most under utilized thing would be imagination, and pace, change the rythm of your day, and change the focus of your mind, keep the good memories close to your soul if you have them/one

Yeah, they let THOSE people treat the crazies

@IceRGodZ brah she's a fucking sex doll but annoying

@IceRGodZ like IG models... they're all fucking sex dolls... why do they make fun of it if they look worse than a sex doll?

like jesus

@Rockets well, clinical depression doesnt quite work like that.

at least not if the cause is not psychological in nature

why don't athletes just all go mgtow

its not that there was anything negative in my life

that would be amazing

its just my brain didnt have enough serotonin. The only thing that really helps there is drugs. And, yes, experience. Knowing that it will change.

And prescription drugs are... well

@Redneo you believe what you want to, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and said f that, I don't let it be my reality, I completely redefined the diagnosis for myself. Although I will admit the physical effects can be a nightmare sometimes, I've found ways to cope

the thing is, if your brain doesnt produce enough serotonin and you take SSRIs... Yes, your serotonin levels will be more normal.

but

the distribution across different brain areas will be off

and while we dont understand that fully, we do know that distribution is relevant

as such, weed and such are better. Now, if anyone suffers from depression, that wouldnt be my advice as it could be mental in which case thatd not be a good idea

You can get all technical if you want, I go eat a gallon of caramel toffee crunch and feel effin amazing afterwards ;p

10 minutes in the bathroom can work wonders too, try it! ;p

@Rockets until that insulin crash 😄

haha

seriously, my strategy is like the Shotgun method, if one thing doesn't work, try something else, but subjecting myself to people who "think" they know what to do is not in my repertoire of choices

@Rockets im not having that problem now.

though i do every now and then

cool

the first time, it lasted like 18 months straight

or the first time i actualy noticed it as such

Whenever I end a relationship, it takes me a long time to recover, years in one case

Well, if thats it that would be mental in nature

i actualy looked into the research as you can imagine i was quite interested in those things

probably, but combined with clinical and all the physical, changing my mind was my weapon of choice, and it's permanent

And while most people suffering from depression ever *might* be mental in nature, the majority of people suffering depression at a given time are physical in nature, due to the fact that that while not neccessarily continuusly, usualy lasts for a lifetime

well, in that case, yall are fucked arent you?

terrible way to spend a life

Well, you can deal with it through drugs either prescription or not

and

I get it though, I know alot of people that are just stuck in it

after the first time you know it wont last forever. at least if its recoursive rather than continuus

and... well

lets say this, too

have you tried smoking a joint?

@Rockets thats exactly what i mean by "nonprescription" drugs

not that I'm condoning it or anything.....

gotchya

he

my parents organise some weed for me if im really down

no need fo your to condone it 😉

how is san Francisco not just wrecked?

like

why can't we just burn it

like jesus

something happen?

yeah my cousin is visiting there and it's insane

ah jesus

people openly doing heroin everywhere and shit literally everywhere

like wtf