I watched one. I know the video was mgtow, but...

@Sam Amari I know you're in a vulnerable state but I really can't recommend the dokkodo / musashi more. You need to make a plan and execute from within. You know what you need to do more than anyone else here. You know what steps have to be taken and what has to be sacrificed. It is in your hands.

that doesn't mean its my kind of mgtow

I suggest you all check out the memes page and watch that couple

Burn that into your mind and remember... Remember that everytime you think you found a nawalt

Thats modern day love... Never forget it

#neverforget

@BlaqShiep The latina one?

Sorry, I might have missed something, what is dokkodo/musashi

Yeah

Lol

@Sam Amari http://www.musashi-miyamoto.com/dokkodo.html

Thanks

In October 2019, as a 30 year old man, i want to be able to afford my medications and not need to rely on anyone but me.

That dude has rule one on lock

Rule one: 100

aight i have to focus on some work before the tfm show starts later tonight, peace out

peace

Yes, like the guy pointed out, im sitting here, fucking crying, like a big beta blue pill bitch. but it wont always look like this. it cant.

@BlaqShiep lol "this is fine"

my father wouldn't have wanted this for me. all the social bullshit and excuses aside, he would want me happy

That's the spirit bro.

@Sam Amari It won't dude. You are acting out of fear and uncertainty.

You just need to ground yourself, find a plan and execute.

You will need financial support of some kind. How do you get there?

The easiest method is cam whoring. I'm just saying.

How much you spend on weed/alcohol?

i might be too emotional for some of you. my only excuse is that i literally have never had a man in my life. i learned everything from my mom. never take for granted what the male influence did for you. i had a deep depression for a while and has to stop reading /r/mgtow and redpill content because there were so many studies being posted about how men from a single parent household are basically fucked

@Sam Amari i can relate brother

@Sam Amari not fucked just a lot more challenge

@Sam Amari I was raised by a single mom, basically raised her and my sister. I was seen as a husband more than a son. It's a fucked situation. I totally understand your mindset.

so when you have that, combined with massive, real issues from having to have surgeries on your chest wall in Germany because you have such an extreme, rare problem, and the pain i went through that, emotional and physical, im not gonna act like im just some "lazy" guy. ive had real setbacks. i want to get past them though

i will never forget the way a girl looked at me with my shirt off when i was 4

@Sam Amari bro listen... Imma tell you a secret. Those with kushy lives arent able to question certain things because it will put in jeopardy their life plan, their reality

The pain will make you stronger.

We are lucky son. We are lucky... Its just haaasrrrddd as fuck

None of that matters right here right now. What matters is: What are the ABSOLUTE necessities for you to live? Create a fucking budget then figure out how you are going to pay for it.

ok fuck @Mee6 you piece of shit

it basically had me a nervous wreck for the next 12 years. until i tried alcohol. and all my self hatred about my chest and physical problems melted away when i was drunk. which of course made me over reliant on alcohol. like my alcoholic dad was who died at 39 from an anenurusm. something im at risk for. and polycystic kidneys, i have baseball sized cysts in my kidneys. i had to quit playing hockey. all that money for that expensive ass sport, all the training, camps, etc. all worthless.

i dont know. im ranting again. FUCK

im so stuck in the past

Im not doing good, but i know the difficulty... But the triumph makes it all make sense

@hel You wanna fuck @Mee6!? You sick fuck!

XDDDD

that boipussy

@BlaqShiep i know that. im thankful to be black pilled in some ways. it comes with its ups and downs.

I got a weird situation where its lots of patience and anxiety... Relying on "luck" immense pressure... But boiiiiii let me tell you... If i can crawl to this finish line.... Boiiiiiiiiii i will never look back

though everyone considers if they were in the Matrix and just took the blue pill how much easier things could be

Super saiyan time

black pill is apathetic inaction. redpill is taking charge of your ship.

Just gotta be patient till then. The anxiety is criopling and thats a real thing

@Sam Amari Only you change your life. We can give advice and some of us may give money but at the end of the day it's 100% you who chooses what you're going to do. You either give up or find purpose and commit.

man don't read that incel shit

there's a black pill? 😛

there's a pink pill.

gawd

im not an incel, so whether or not i read it doesnt really matter

incel doesn't make sense lol

What you surround yourself with, you become.

It takes 2 seconds to be a NON Incel.

unless you're a feminist and are so far gone?

CREATE SOMETHING DUDE!

i had a lot of sex in college. but it was almost all drunken one night stands. with my fuckin shirt off so i could spare the girl from the atrocity under my shirt

*shirt on

you gotta put your energy into something

You will feel better

meh. looks don't matter. confidence does

Make a you tube video

well, i make music. i have a soundcloud with something like 1600 followers. at least something

Confidence doesn't just come naturally

Write a song, a poem

Confidence comes from action.

Play guitar

Being proud of something you did or done.

if i link my soundcloud tho, thats an instant doxx

Create man... Its cathartic

Lol you can

`Confidence doesn't just come naturally`

but knowing that its about confidence and not your actual looks will give you the confidence to not care about your ugly mug

It's just soundcloud

Hell yeah thats something

oh wow 100 plays in the last week. thats cool actually

i just checked on my account

Boo ya

haha. my mom calls it "self hatred music" xD

Write something new with your current spot

Fuck your mom

but shes a fucking dumb cunt who believes in astrology and attacked me and spit on me

Shes jealous

i dont want to be reliant on that whore. god, if only i didnt have all these medical issues i wouldnt need to have this position of being on my knees

She aint got real emotions or creativity. She needs to belittle yours to justify her perception

my mom literally only fucked jacked idiot chads after my dad died

Keep creating excersize

Its humbling

never found a real replacement father. i had to watch my friends whose parents were merely divorced get these amazing stepdads. cuz the moms were smart and found a rich guy. but my mom always needed some yung chad xD

Go for run... Sprint

you can still love your mom, despite her nature

Run as fast as yoi can for as long as you can

Then jog push yourself till you fall if need be

I guarantee you will feel better

i love her sometimes. othertimes i just wish i was never born and hate the very fact that i was created to suffer through so much pointless surgery and came out at the other end with no real prospective life