Message from @BlaqShiep
Discord ID: 503298640513859584
In October 2019, as a 30 year old man, i want to be able to afford my medications and not need to rely on anyone but me.
That dude has rule one on lock
Rule one: 100
aight i have to focus on some work before the tfm show starts later tonight, peace out
peace
Yes, like the guy pointed out, im sitting here, fucking crying, like a big beta blue pill bitch. but it wont always look like this. it cant.
@BlaqShiep lol "this is fine"
my father wouldn't have wanted this for me. all the social bullshit and excuses aside, he would want me happy
That's the spirit bro.
@Sam Amari It won't dude. You are acting out of fear and uncertainty.
You just need to ground yourself, find a plan and execute.
You will need financial support of some kind. How do you get there?
The easiest method is cam whoring. I'm just saying.
How much you spend on weed/alcohol?
i might be too emotional for some of you. my only excuse is that i literally have never had a man in my life. i learned everything from my mom. never take for granted what the male influence did for you. i had a deep depression for a while and has to stop reading /r/mgtow and redpill content because there were so many studies being posted about how men from a single parent household are basically fucked
@Sam Amari i can relate brother
@Sam Amari not fucked just a lot more challenge
@Sam Amari I was raised by a single mom, basically raised her and my sister. I was seen as a husband more than a son. It's a fucked situation. I totally understand your mindset.
so when you have that, combined with massive, real issues from having to have surgeries on your chest wall in Germany because you have such an extreme, rare problem, and the pain i went through that, emotional and physical, im not gonna act like im just some "lazy" guy. ive had real setbacks. i want to get past them though
i will never forget the way a girl looked at me with my shirt off when i was 4
@Sam Amari bro listen... Imma tell you a secret. Those with kushy lives arent able to question certain things because it will put in jeopardy their life plan, their reality
The pain will make you stronger.
We are lucky son. We are lucky... Its just haaasrrrddd as fuck
None of that matters right here right now. What matters is: What are the ABSOLUTE necessities for you to live? Create a fucking budget then figure out how you are going to pay for it.
it basically had me a nervous wreck for the next 12 years. until i tried alcohol. and all my self hatred about my chest and physical problems melted away when i was drunk. which of course made me over reliant on alcohol. like my alcoholic dad was who died at 39 from an anenurusm. something im at risk for. and polycystic kidneys, i have baseball sized cysts in my kidneys. i had to quit playing hockey. all that money for that expensive ass sport, all the training, camps, etc. all worthless.
i dont know. im ranting again. FUCK
im so stuck in the past
Im not doing good, but i know the difficulty... But the triumph makes it all make sense
XDDDD
that boipussy
@BlaqShiep i know that. im thankful to be black pilled in some ways. it comes with its ups and downs.
I got a weird situation where its lots of patience and anxiety... Relying on "luck" immense pressure... But boiiiiii let me tell you... If i can crawl to this finish line.... Boiiiiiiiiii i will never look back
though everyone considers if they were in the Matrix and just took the blue pill how much easier things could be
Super saiyan time
black pill is apathetic inaction. redpill is taking charge of your ship.
Just gotta be patient till then. The anxiety is criopling and thats a real thing
@Sam Amari Only you change your life. We can give advice and some of us may give money but at the end of the day it's 100% you who chooses what you're going to do. You either give up or find purpose and commit.
man don't read that incel shit
there's a black pill? 😛