Message from @KhromosomeKing
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Personally i feel much better than yesterday like i mentioned in general
But imma keep my guard up tho knowing the bullshit that can be thrown at me sometimes
finally some good news
good for you nibblar
Jesus
We've got 'Benji: The Hunted' on TV at lunch
It's like an hour and a half of this dog lost in the woods, protecting some cougar Cubs, fighting a timber wolf and other shit
Entire film is depressing as fuck
It's implied he survives the film, but it doesn't even give a concrete ending
Like the dogs owner finds him and shit fades to credits as he starts to land the helicopter
All of the animals acting is great though
Though I am reasonably sure the phrase "no animals were harmed in the making of this film" applies
Considering that he's fighting a wolf and dodges so the fucker goes flying off a cliff
@noobypropmaker you'll be in my rosary and in my prayers
Shit, I've just realized that I'm not necessarily afraid of the future, I'm afraid of not knowing what exactly to expect
i think ive gone through so much trauma that i think my true emotions will never see the light of day
why do i feel so empty
Shit man
I don't even know if I have true emotions at all
I feel like everything I do, everything I feel, every choice I make is artificial and only a response, or an attemt to adapt to, the environment I'm in, and I don't even know what my "true" nature would be and if there even is one
I haven't had too much childhood trauma or anything, maybe it's just consequences of being a non-high-functioning autist and drinking almost every day for 2 years straight, as I think alcohol can cause brain damage and possibly even schizophrenia
I overthink shit constantly, which leads me to believe I don't have any sort of "natural" thoughts or emotions and my mind is just testing everything I can think of, trying out what could cause the best, or sometimes just the first acceptable, outcome in any given situation
jesus ok this is much worse than me
I miss being home
I miss my life
I miss my family
You aight bud?
Yeet
I know you can feel empty from time to time
It's ok to feel that way
Just not to dwell on that shitstain
The only emptiness is our doomed future
Getting laid off from two jobs sucks
mainly because thye were closing down
Some gay shit.
