Message from @Coal
Discord ID: 561101281750417420
Considering that he's fighting a wolf and dodges so the fucker goes flying off a cliff
@noobypropmaker you'll be in my rosary and in my prayers
Shit, I've just realized that I'm not necessarily afraid of the future, I'm afraid of not knowing what exactly to expect
i think ive gone through so much trauma that i think my true emotions will never see the light of day
why do i feel so empty
Shit man
I don't even know if I have true emotions at all
I feel like everything I do, everything I feel, every choice I make is artificial and only a response, or an attemt to adapt to, the environment I'm in, and I don't even know what my "true" nature would be and if there even is one
I haven't had too much childhood trauma or anything, maybe it's just consequences of being a non-high-functioning autist and drinking almost every day for 2 years straight, as I think alcohol can cause brain damage and possibly even schizophrenia
I overthink shit constantly, which leads me to believe I don't have any sort of "natural" thoughts or emotions and my mind is just testing everything I can think of, trying out what could cause the best, or sometimes just the first acceptable, outcome in any given situation
jesus ok this is much worse than me
I miss being home
I miss my life
I miss my family
You aight bud?
Yeet
I know you can feel empty from time to time
It's ok to feel that way
Just not to dwell on that shitstain
The only emptiness is our doomed future
Getting laid off from two jobs sucks
Some gay shit.
>tfw your poor social skills will make sure you never get to see this type of shit happen
So dealt with my cousin
A lot makes sense now
And i feel like an asshole
Fuck
been really sick the last week and I haven't been able to get out of the house
I am living alone right now so its extremely boring
you feeling aight now?
nah, idk what it is but I've been having headaches lasting for more than 3 days and just been really tired
damn
hope you get well soon m8
thanks man