also @ElPacho are you confiremed

i am confirmed

though i got confirmed in my edgy phase

hope it still counts

he got confirmed too

Did you mean your confirmation vows when you said them

to be completely honest, i cannot say

i'm inclining "no"

but if i did that today, i would have not an ounce of doubt in my mind

i feel so bad, looking back

@MawLr what do you think

how i did not take seriously so many things

i feel like it's my fault somehow

that he became what he is today

Perhaps

being a bad example and all

most likely

but that doesn't matter now

what's done is done nigga

yeah gotta move on and stuff

though that means it's my responsibility

more than anyone else's

i fear for his soul

and i curse my own weakness

I fear this thing

it'll be ok el

18 is still quite young

he might die tomorrow

he might die today

why, is he terminally ill?

no

it's just always a possibility

then its probably not gonna happen

i like to think so as well

yeah we might all die at any point but there is no point living in fear that way

i'd just like for him to see the light as soon as humanly possible

but today i knew, that day was far, far away

just when i thought it was soon

if you keep living your best life and continously set a good example even when he rebels against it he may still come back aroud

You should live every day like you have to face God tomorrow

@ElPacho just give it time