Also this

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Been feeling weird lately
Don't know if there's a way to exactly describe it with words, but it's almost like every action, every activity, every job, everything I do and encounter on a daily basis in life has become bland, repetitive, restrictive and suffocating to the point it seems as if it lacks a purpose, even though it doesn't, and all the shit I've enjoyed is slowly losing its colors
I do have things to look forward to and be happy about (mainly my own ideas and my faith in God and the future in general), and I most definetely am not "depressed" in any form (even if I were to genuinely believe I was, self-diagnosing and finding non-existant problems in yourself so that others will pity you would still be gay af), but almost everything I do now feels hopeless, meaningless and dull
There is a purpose and a meaning behind everything and I know that, but I think I am slowly becoming blind to it and losing track of my way in life and what I should do

Nah, I've been at the psychologist last year, he told me I was fine but "overworked" because my daily jobs are repetitive and I can't find anything new

Also, what exactly do you mean by "socializing"?

I do have friends, but I rarely talk with them because most of them either have left this shitty village at the first opportunity to do so, or are busy with their own problems
I talk to people when I'm working, but I don't intentionally go out in search of someone to talk to because that seems like a waste of time
I rarely go out if there's like a party or some shit like that, but most of the times it's just to get drunk and dance for some time, then head back; I do talk with people I know if I meet them though

Don't always have time for that
For me, a list of "friends" on some social network is like saved numbers on a phone - it allows you to quickly find someone you're looking for and start a conversation, but just adding someone to that list doesn't instantly make them your best friend or something of that sort; besides, I wouldn't want people genuinely being worried about my well-being in case I have too many jobs to finish and can't be online

No need to

Seriously

Caring about someone on the Internet you don't know much about could result in stress, and I wouldn't want to cause someone to be worried over nothing

Yeah

But there's no reason to be worried for me because there's nothing wrong besides my shitty worries @Tersheus

Anhewhat? @Deleted User

The fuck does that mean? Is it like some disease that turns you homosexual?

Ah

Shit

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Fuck, I think I coughed up my extra chromosome

*dabs in HIV-positive*

I have them, but we rarely talk
Plus most of the friends who I do talk to are, uh, how do I describe it without sounding like I'm running a drug operation, "business friends"

Meaning that we don't get to talk about life and hobbies and God and shit, and only converse when there's something important

Yeah, also they're not actual "acquaintances" as I'm not employed anywhere, kek

It's hard to explain

I guess that describes it well enough

I do have "actual" friends too, just that there isn't that many of them and we rarely get to talk

I still technically do, but there isn't a lot either way

And why should I? Seems pointless to me

I can't build new relations quickly as I'm a literal autist, but I do keep around all the friends I've made in the past, even if we don't talk often
And I don't really get bored because of that, my mood and the way I see shit changes after a liter and a half of vodka

Indeed
Then I shouldn't be worried about that; it's not my interactions with the people that make my existence feel meaningless even if it isn't, it's the enviroment and the daily routine

Kek

I would do new shit if I had the means to, my village is a dead end both in terms of population and infrastructure, plus I don't seem to find even new things to be as interesting as the old ones were before

Guess I'll just try to sleep now since the snow hasn't melted completely yet and I'm gonna need rest to handle half-melted wet shit that sticks together and makes my back wanna kill itself after carrying 500 whole shovels of it even a short distance

@Deleted User
I would if I could
I can't because 1) I don't have the money to buy one and 2) autists in Russia can't legally obtain a driver's license that allows you to operate anything past a fucking motorized wheelchair, and I'm an autist

If I get the chance, I most definetely will
Just imagine a bunch of junkies gathering on the side of the road to share some heroin when they see a retard in a wheelchair drive over to them with bassboosted Filthy Frank music blasting through the speakers on the back of said wheelchair and steal their heroin in the middle of all the confusion

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Epic

@Tersheus
"SFW"as in "non-pornographic" and "without left-wing AIDS-accepting influences that attract degeneracy"

Basically normal furry drawings without porn and bullshit like "hurr durr trans rights = human rights"

@Tersheus
Most furries on sites like Plebbit or, God forbid, *Tumblr*, actively push leftist narratives, and as you might have guessed, shit like that isn't beneficial in the average community

@country doggo
If it threads on the line between SFW and somewhat sexual, e.g. the focus of the picture is on the ass, but there is no nudity or explicit content, I'd still keep it in <#489001289175531522>, but fully SFW art belongs in <#555547449628819466> as there's no mountains of visual cancer posted there every day and people can just enjoy normal art

Fucking hell
Do you ever forget yourself and just go about with your daily routine, then you take a moment to think about shit or see your reflection and remember who you are and what situation you're in, then existential dread sets in and you wanna ask God: "Yo, my nigga, what the FUCK did I do in my past lives to deserve this shit?"

Kind of
For me it's usually caused by returning home after working, looking in the mirror, realizing who I am, what was my past, what is my present and what might be my future, then I start feeling as if God has decided to shit on my life in particular for some reason

The only things that still can make me keep going are my faith in God and the will to continue my bloodline, if I'd just kill myself, I'd not only go to Hell, but also make all the efforts of my parents, grandparents, great grandparents and all the ancestors before them futile

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FHLOyJgn0AE

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Sorry about that, my man, hold strong, I wish your bro makes it without any complications

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you the third edition of the world-famous Gonorrhoea Goblin™

You ever have that feeling after waking up from a bad dream that you think what went down in it is actually real and the consequences are still gonna be here, then you realize it's nothing more than a dream and calm down?

I want this to happen to me right now

I want to wake up in 2015 or 2016 and realize that everything I've experienced since the beginning of 2017 is nothing more than a very vivid and long bad dream

God, if you can see this, I want this to happen

Shit man

Shit, I've just realized that I'm not necessarily afraid of the future, I'm afraid of not knowing what exactly to expect

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/388053990954369027/560127911852769311/IMG_20190326_081912_805.jpg

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@Higura
Jesus fuck, this guy needs to be physically erased from existence, preferably via a nuclear explosion

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Shit man

I don't even know if I have true emotions at all
I feel like everything I do, everything I feel, every choice I make is artificial and only a response, or an attemt to adapt to, the environment I'm in, and I don't even know what my "true" nature would be and if there even is one
I haven't had too much childhood trauma or anything, maybe it's just consequences of being a non-high-functioning autist and drinking almost every day for 2 years straight, as I think alcohol can cause brain damage and possibly even schizophrenia

I overthink shit constantly, which leads me to believe I don't have any sort of "natural" thoughts or emotions and my mind is just testing everything I can think of, trying out what could cause the best, or sometimes just the first acceptable, outcome in any given situation

Fucking hell, I'm finally back

Work has been a pain

Another one of my friends died, hanged himself after the doctors said his sarcoma (bone cancer) has reached the 4th stage and he couldn't afford or even physically handle more rounds of chemotherapy, plus he would've been required to move to some large city to get treated properly, and he didn't have the money for that either

Miss the bastard, and will continue missing him for years, he was the only real nigga back in 9th grade

We both lived in one of the shittiest parts of Russia: lower central Siberia

Our fucking village doesn't have a proper hospital, let alone one that treats cancer patients

Thanks man

The government doesn't care about the poor and rural village areas; they're only profitable for the drug dealers

We technically can, but I doubt we'd have a chance at doing so or having our message reach him in the end

Чего?

Fun fact: the Soviets put gays and trannies in mental institutions, and yet the liberals still support them

Post them in <#487321900540887040> @Coal

...or just don't fucking have premarital sex; promiscuity is a sin

It's tolerable if you have had sex once or twice, but if you keep seeking out new dicks to suck every goddamn day of your existence and don't want anything else than the satisfaction of your physical and sexual lust, it's not alright

Yeah @bdog, overly focusing your life around sexual activity isn't great though as it may lead to "sex addiction" and you being depressed whenever you don't get any action in a set period of time

@𝕰𝖑𝖉𝖆𝖗𝕾𝖖𝖚𝖎𝖗𝖑
Nah, there are far worse living situatuons out there, if I'd have to bet there's at least one Nigerian man in this server who lives in a mud hut and has to survive on dried grass and small mammals, and the device he's posting from is a stolen phone

Fucking hell, I legit don't know what the point of my life is anymore
Every day feels like a meaningless drag with menial tasks I do to prevent my physical state from turning even worse, I've got no ambitions, no motivation, nothing to look forward to, work feels more and more repetitive and pointless even if I know it brings me money and that it's necessary for buying food and paying off bills, nothing I used to like gives me any good emotions anymore, all the shit feels like it's turning dull, grey and stale and I don't know how to get rid of this state of universal pointlessness, hopelessness and repetitiveness, even vodka barely does its job at making me stop thinking about this fucking misery anymore

Sorry for boring you with my rants, everything seems to be getting duller and more pointless by the second and I don't know what to do

There's no way to, unless God Himself undoes all the shit that has happened since the end of 2016

Nah, I don't wanna get airborne AIDS the second I get one inch closer to California than I should have

Get the bastard to see a therapist, either he's just showing off due to a lack of attention or he does cut, but does so shittily, in any case he'd be better off with at least some kind of help

@country doggo
>scat and gore among the list of possibilities
Nigga, what circles are you in? From my experience with fandomfags, shit like that is usually restricted to some autist conglomerations like F-List or the zoophile board of 8chan

@ThatGuyWithPaste
That seems to be the case with most people who openly associate themselves with any large fandom, be it furries, weebs, bronies or whatever else
You *can* like some fandom shit in a normal, non-sexual way, but it very much depends on your active presence in the fandom itself too, as if you're open to porn in general, you'll most likely start enjoying porn associated with that fandom

Yeah

The nature of those fandoms is different

One is based around a type of art and an internet subculture associated with it, and one is based around IRL music bands who teenage white girls seem to obsess over

And yeah, it gets like that the deeper you reach into the fandom

The pedoshit and beastiality in weebs and furries respectively is a problem hidden beneath the deeper ends of them

@ThatGuyWithPaste
Somewhat true, but general patterns in them can be similar

Show fandoms, for example, like to obsess over a particular character

Regardless of the show, there's always gonna be a dedicated group of obsessed yaoi fangirls who ship men together for no adequate reason

If you like something, keep on liking it, but don't dive too far if you don't want to encounter an emotional manifestation of AIDS