https://youtu.be/jr1rl4NKCeo

People who live in constant pain seem to hold onto hope more than most healthy ones

I wish I had a way of time traveling back to the last major fuckup in my life and unfucking it up
Or just back to the winter of 2015, with full memories of where my life is gonna go after 2016 ends, and plans to fucking stop all of that shit from ever happening

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/509091070911578122/536521426186928138/reeeeREEEEEEE.png

New emote

Kek

@Duke of Txtspeak
Maybe this one, then?

ben shapiro

ben shapiro

@Higura
Dang man, that seems fucked
If you don't mind me asking, do you have some form of schizophrenia? Apologies in advance if that's an insensitive question to ask of someone

@Higura
I recommend visiting the psychiatrist and checking out there regularly if necessary, (marked the upcoming part as a spoiler since it might be disturbing or make you doubt yourself, and I don't intend to cause that) ||and also there's a man with what I assume is severe paranoid schizophrenia in my village whose relatives probably ignored all of the early signs and it's now progressed to him believing that he can talk to God and that all large modern denominations of Christianity are set up by the Jews to trick and control the religious population into becoming slaves of Satan, he's openly hostile towards anyone who disagrees with that notion, and I believe he could've had it better if his relatives went with him to the doctor sooner,|| so if you think your condition is getting worse, you should definetely get it checked out
As a reassurance (hope it isn't shitty), don't get freaked out just because of some stupid Discord user's words, you probably don't have schizophrenia, and even if you do, it's manageable and you can still live a good life if you keep it under control
In any case, I wish you good health, stay safe and don't get anxious over my (most likely incorrect) assumptions

Good to hear, best of luck to you

@Higura
Fucking hell man, I feel your pain
2017 has been the single worst year in my life, and since then it hasn't noticeably gone downhill further, but hasn't and will not go back uphill ever again
My dad passed away in the early days of 2017 after 3 years of fighting with lung cancer - the operations didn't help, chemo didn't help, radio didn't help, it was as if God has decided that he has fulfilled his purpose in life and isn't required to live anymore
I was also working in a store from December 2015 to January 2017, people think it's just due to my 'tism (that's what I've been telling them so that they wouldn't take it as a sob story I made up just to ruin my boss's public image), though the actual reason I was let go is because I was so devastated by the loss that I couldn't focus on work, "gave off a bad vibe" and detracted customers by constantly losing my attention in the middle of working, and this is bad because it was hard enough to find a job that would accept a non-high-functioning autist, and it's even harder to find a job that also pays well
Then, the apartment I inherited from my dad burned down in March due to shitty wiring, along with a lot of my personal belongings, documents and the money I was saving since university to buy a new apartment or maybe even a house in Tomsk

I got a new one-story wooden house with the help of one of my friends, but I still haven't entirely made it good, as in, there's no running water, the only well on my property fucked over in 2018 and I take the water from my neighbors, who live about 100 meters away from my current house
The things I listed above are the reasons I'm drinking, as alcohol helps me to pay less attention to all the shit that happened in the past (well, most of the times, when I do remember that shit while drunk, I'll most likely be depressed for several days even after I sober up completely)
The way I get money is through disability benefits and small jobs like shoveling snow, chopping and stacking firewood and painting fences/houses, and even then most of it goes out to pay for the necessities such as electricity bills, food and water, and the rest I spend on alcohol
My situation is a complete dead end, and the only thing I can hope for is that it won't get worse

Sorry for the wall of text, the situation @Higura is in reminded me of my own story

Okay

@Higura
Thanks for your kind words, I hope you'll deal with your problems as soon as possible
And the only thing I think would help me is if the economy of my shitty village was miraculously fixed, I could find a job and get the money needed to either finish improving my house or move

Regardless, good luck with whatever you're doing

About 70-80k roubles (which is roughly 9 times the amount I earn every month, not counting the bills and the food I have to pay for, kek), that's the cheapest price the company that conducts water to houses like mine offers, plus if I have to count the total price of installing the sinks, the drains, the shower and the indoors toilet, the total price rises to 150-200k, which is astronomically high compared to the amount of money that's left over unspent every month

@Higura
Even the shittiest single-room apartments in Tomsk (the nearest large city) cost over a million roubles, which is an amount of money that I have never earned before, and probably will not earn in the foreseeable future

The only things we have to make now to achieve a cancerous fandom singularity is a #furry channel and a #mlp channel

@Deleted User
What?

Is that some creepypasta shit or something like that?

Best manga waifu of the century, don't @ me

I've made the sequel to my Gonorrhea Goblin

It's beautiful, isn't it?

Check the pins if you're unaware

If you're a weeb and you complain about furries, your opinion doesn't count <:HeH:463760930153693184>

Go ahead <:Spurdo:463761060718051339>

Also, we got <#548928520991277057>, which may count as a substitute for a furry channel
Now the only thing we have to do before completing the cancer triangle is a channel dedicated exclusively to horses

Beaned?

@Tersheus
Check the ban list, he probably pulled some dumb shit in front of a moderator or got warned too many times

Oh, okay

Will he get kicked again if he returns to the server before 3 days pass? @Tersheus

Nice

Kek

Imagine watching any anime other than Jojo

Tbh I'm still waiting for the Vilous manga to be made into an anime
Imagine seeing sergals killing their planet's hostile wildlife (and committing racial genocide against each other <:Spurdo:463761060718051339>), but in GLORIOUS MOTION

I'm still wondering if part 9 of Jojo is gonna be released in manga form before Stone Ocean is animated

And if it'll get released at all

That's pretty sad

New emote?

Wait, we already have 2 duplicate ones

<:genuswojak:550157060533256192> <:BigBraen:465443426889105412>

Let me fix that

<:HONK:550452055140204554>

@aedan greyyyyy
I've taken care of the brain one, now only the higher-quality one is present

<:genuswojak:550157060533256192>

Wait

Yep, there are more

<:chad:550157034608263170> <:Chad:463761149100425246>

The last 2 are the same one, not duplicated

<:uhhh:550156952534253588>

<:yikes:550156991583092756> and <:sweat2:550156967432290314> are kinda different, so they should probably both stay unless a mod or an admin decides otherwise

Hmmm

I'd guess <:sweat2:550156967432290314> is worried and <:yikes:550156991583092756> is shocked

@aedan greyyyyy
Nigga tf is this then? <:swassi:550522447472885761>

https://youtu.be/F1vlpybMwRI

@aedan greyyyyy
Oh shit, didn't know

Sorry man

https://www.wkyt.com/content/news/2-arrested-in-buffet-brawl-over-crab-legs-506440621.html?fbclid=IwAR2k-1-G4rNCUCm4aIUctwRTtMmHXiYlW_4H5NppbCkNFxebjlNOG_pWFHw

Oh shit, isn't that the dude who created the atomic bomb?

He seems to feel more guilt for his invention than the people who actually use it

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/388053990954369027/551496325615714315/1551556778962.png

@Golom
The forest story looks like something out of Annihilation, the air shimmering and looking like it's heated plus the train-like sounds remind me of it

<:Considering:550596038084395028>

https://youtu.be/ZO0sUCXX3uI

Man

Imagine how great it'd be if God ended the entire fucking universe so we don't have to suffer with this shit

You ever get the feeling that something shitty is going to happen soon?
Everything feels too fucking calm, stagnant almost, and I've got this persistent sense of unease

Maybe it's just my own mind fucking with me because I haven't felt down in a while

Probably shouldn't think about it too much

Well, my suspicion that something is about to happen wasn't entirely unfounded in the end
A lot of shit went down when I decided to get out of the house and walk around the village for a bit: I met one of my old friends from HS, saw a group of people run somewhere, and learned that a guy I knew died recently
The first one is self-explanatory, I ran into this dude who I haven't seen since 9th grade because he dropped out of school after it and went to Tomsk, then returned here for some reason and now wants to go back, but can't because he doesn't have the money
The second goes as follows: I'm about 450 meters away from my house when I notice a group of 11-12 people (9 or 10 adults, 2 kids) and 3 dogs run down the street, probably either gypsies or a bunch of hobos/junkies running from a drug den to not get caught by the police (which happens extremely rarely as the police doesn't care about this shithole village), which is unusual but not too unexpected considering the village has a large amount of homeless people and junkies
The third is: I walked past the house of the guy in question, saw an unfamiliar man shoveling snow in the yard, greeted him and asked him who he is, he said he's the nephew of that guy and he apparently got hit by a truck and died in the hospital 5 days ago; never really considered that guy a true friend as we never talked, but he did fix a shovel for me once without asking for money, for which I am grateful, so I was still sad about this in the end
None of these events are particularly bad (except for the last one), but my suspicions were technically partially confirmed

I clean most of the snow in the village, it's my main source of income in the late autumn, winter and early spring as my disability benefits go to pay off the monthly bills

Yeah, pretty much

Hope he is
This shithole is like Hell, but with less fire and junkies and drug dealers instead of demons

Pretty small, less than 1000 people, don't know the full amount, but I feel like more people either leave or die than arrive or get born here

Don't have an option but to stay
No money, nowhere to really go outside of here as most of the normal towns and villages are far away and I don't know if it's possible to find a good and cheap house to buy even in the nearby villages, and if I were to try and find my relatives, even if I was successful, I'd just be rejected or stay but become a financial burden for them since I'm unemployable for most normal jobs (no proper qualification plus I'm officially considered as disabled because of my autism)

Yeah, the money that's left over from the disability benefits after paying for the bills goes to buy food, the money I earn daily goes for alcohol, small shit like SIM card payments, medication in case I get sick, taxi travel and rarely videogames, in some cases for food too if I want to buy more than I usually do

Pretty much every day or with 1-day breaks, I don't know how my liver hasn't failed or developed cancer yet, kek

I did, but I failed most of the times I tried to
Besides, it helps me prevent myself from falling into existential dread

<:HONK:550452055140204554>

@ThatGuyWithPaste @Tersheus @Trixaan_Artisan @Deleted User
The fuck happened with ubugme? Didn't even know he was ever banned, what did he do?

Ah

Kek

He isn't that bad *now*, but he definetely was

Though I would have to agree if he's truly changed

<:HONK:550452055140204554>

Why do all of them look like they're underage

<:AAAAA:531152976358801422>

"It's not CP if she's a 5000-year-old goddess, even though she has the body of a prepubescent child"

I've legitimately seen weeb pedos use that excuse when they get called out on cranking their hog to CP

Yeah