Message from @Busto
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All kinds of things in play training people to be all kinds of things. Better to take that into ones own hands.
sounds all to familiar^
Dissociating doesn't feel good lol
the past few years have flewn by
trying to figure out what the fuck to do
not knowing
not having much a reason to care
getting older makes me want money because bodies break down, but that's about all for really
I have a lot of mental shit going on that I can't really control; a couple nights ago I had really bad nightmares/night terrors about this guy I like
The kind where you throw your body around in your sleep and go in and out of consciousness and cry in your sleep
Haven't had one of those in awhile
subconscious stuff is tricky
It sucks, but that's just how it is
I'm gonna sleep
Night
you can get your fingers into it, but it's tricky
night^
I just realized what today was. It's been exactly 11 years since my grandpa died.
It's kind of upsetting to think about, not just because he practically raised me himself, but cause of all the stupid stuff we would bond over. Just going fishing and laughing. Working our farm, reloading ammo, etc etc. He always was afraid that the country would go the way it is, a sort of shitty dystopia with backassward ideals. I'm glad he didn't get to see how everything turned out, but I do wish I had him around for guidance.
I guess, just having no living relatives, is equally shitty. My grandpa raised me to be tough, and never accept help from no one; and I see people all the time who don't deserve free shit while I have always struggled with finances; while being demonized as the source of the worlds ills. I'm certain, with my upbringing, even without 4chan and the redpills, I would've still ended up being blackpilled.
I'm just tired. Felt like sharing, I guess.
It's hard standing on your own. Having to find your own answers all of the time. Not having anyone to rely on. Always having things expected of you. At a certain point you just have to give yourself a reason.
For me, I know what I gave myself very well could be BS. But it's enough to keep me invested. It's not something that can ever be taken from me. In the event that I am sitting there staring at nothing but despair: I still have something to anchor myself with.
@Busto Go to the gym
Damn, sorry to hear
Wanna vent about it
I obviously go to the gym, not some beta and it was just when things were starting to look up in my life
better then than at a stress point
@Busto I’m just saying it will make you feel better
It'll keep my mind off of shit I suppose, too late to do anything here rn though
If you don’t mind me asking, why did y’all break up
To sum it up: things just got to hectic and stressful in her life and she just couldn't handle being in a relationship, at least I can say that I wasn't the cause of it
Oh I see
How old are you
18 since the other week, young nigs
Oh shit you still have the under 18 role
Now you can access NSFW and see naked women to take your mind off your ex
Damn you're right, ez
<@&461916315016495104> get his man the over 18 role please
@Busto That's actually one of the more reasonable reasons to break up. Especially when moving to a post HS transition. Going from HS to college is going to kill just about any existant relationship at that point.
Yeah that's why I'm glad things ended this way rather than something way worse
yeah I can relate
me and my ex got together in the Army, we decided it's really not the best place for a relationship