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hmm....nah
@noobypropmaker not here for a long time nigga. We're here for a good time.
I need to learn to stop having expectations. I’ve never had an issue with it until now.
I keep expecting things, and they don’t happen. I keep taking considerations as plans—things that will for certain happen. When they don’t, I am consistently let down and disappointed. I don’t know how to stop and how to keep my own personal happiness from relying on others
I keep finding myself taking things I’m told as gospel. I keep expecting these things, and when the time comes and they don’t follow through, I’m crushed.
I can’t stop. It’s affecting my relationships.
It’s happened so much that the little things are now enough to set me off edge. I’m just so done with everything
I just want someone to be with me right now. I feel so alone. Everyone is asleep. I want my mom right now. I want to hug her because I haven’t done that in a long time.. I had a fight with her today, too—pretty sure she cried.
I’m just fucking AAAAAG
It's fitting that allot of sleep aids and some melatonin supplements are Blue pills
You wake up, and you belive what you want to belive.
Wait what
I just found it a funny coincidence, haha
Need to sell "The Blue Pill" Where its just a blue clear pill thats a sleep aid, and a "The Red Pill" That's just caffine in a red clear pill.
Only could sell it in small volumes at small venues though because im sure Warner Bros will assfuck me
I'm pretty sure it's not intentional. Though knowing Zog, it probably is.
Since blue is supposed to be a pacifying color and calming
Yeah, not accually *blue pill*, its been blue since before the matrix
Need to do what matrix did and get a couple cool comic book nerds to help write and direct a film / movie / documentary just for fun
I know we have Sheep
I wanna be happy but can't right now.
<:feelsbadman:589929333074821140>
Or uh lonely.
Or fuck if I know <:KEK:465443054254424065>
I want to be able to afford shit I actually want like a Switch or just even some rubber for a controller, but I can't because I have no job and I don't wanna get a job until I lose some weight and I always bail on that shit.
I mean yeah I could get a job right now but idk what's stopping me, something to do with self consciousness, or lack of social skill?
But sometimes, it really do be like that tho.
Lose weight then nibba
Willpower is the only thing that is stopping that
I'm trying to avoid sugars and drink only water or unsweetened tea. It's difficult af
Diet is the most important part of losing weight (obviously work out as well but yeah)
Yeet
Is true, used to not be fat, currently fixing many issues, once things are more stable I intend to fix body
Or maybe I'll use my fat when food runs out during boogaloo
Whatever comes first
You know, under the recent times of political turmoil I was getting really depressed because it seemed to boil down to choosing to be a Communist or a Nazi with no middle ground.
I have found a new path, akin to Poland.
No Communists
No Nazi
Only Americans.
In this, I feel pride I have never felt before, and a new path open to me.
@Deleted User Getting fresh air and physical activity helps allot with that down feeling. Sunlight, too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_7SnknvQxA Pretty relevent
Is that the tunnel to a second world where everything is dead or am I thinking of the wrong one
Yeah