Message from @A Pesky Sæxon

Discord ID: 637101468628811807


2019-10-24 09:23:59 UTC  

Grab a tarp, a sleeping bag(s) and a good friend

2019-10-24 09:25:09 UTC  

Go innawoods or somewhere away from society, make a campfire, eat some canned beans and sleep under the stars, maybe under the tarp if you have to

2019-10-24 09:25:57 UTC  

Make sure it takes a lot of pgysical strain to get to the place, doesn't even need to be far from society

2019-10-24 09:26:20 UTC  

Just go to the other side of town or to another town by foot

2019-10-24 09:26:28 UTC  

Could take like 3-5 hrs

2019-10-24 09:26:32 UTC  

That's enough

2019-10-24 09:27:03 UTC  

After the next day you'll sleep like a baby

2019-10-24 09:27:46 UTC  

The trip makes you appreciate your usual bed, your covers etc.

2019-10-24 09:27:57 UTC  

Works for me everytime

2019-10-24 16:47:33 UTC  

My life is a cringe compilation

2019-10-24 17:17:31 UTC  

same tbh

2019-10-24 23:51:50 UTC  

Think this is the pill I've taken since july

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/462997453181026307/637075816618000385/Capture_2019-10-24-16-46-40.png

2019-10-25 00:01:40 UTC  

indeed

2019-10-25 01:28:00 UTC  

I feel like emotions terribly spent. Ive raised a church into a cathedral but I myself sunk in the mud as the result of supporting it.

2019-10-25 01:29:12 UTC  

Why do I feel like I should be recognized? Why is jealousy kicking in? Or is it fear? Maybe fear is masking itself as jealousy - so it can get me to believe everything will be okay.

2019-10-25 01:29:29 UTC  

A simple emotion - within a night, has changed me.

2019-10-25 01:30:06 UTC  

I pushed someone out so far to where I’m just a simple hello now, a fond memory.

2019-10-25 01:30:46 UTC  

It’s my fault. I wallow in my own creation.

2019-10-25 01:32:25 UTC  

This is the final step to absolution. The lonely road.

2019-10-25 01:33:08 UTC  

It’s eerily inviting but I don’t know if I should take that leap and abandon the old and embrace solidarity

2019-10-25 01:33:46 UTC  

I need to confine myself somehow, from these people to prevent further damage.

2019-10-25 01:34:04 UTC  

I wish I could just man up and apologize thoroughly.

2019-10-25 01:36:02 UTC  

The coming days are going to be hard and I don’t think I’ll get any better until the 27th. Only then will I get recognition. I want something verbal - I want somebody to tell me they truly love me, somebody close to me so I can have that support.

2019-10-25 01:36:35 UTC  

God I might be depressed.

2019-10-25 01:37:47 UTC  

Christ guide me in these perilous hours.

2019-10-25 01:41:51 UTC  

Don't worry Maine, you'll get there soon enough.

2019-10-25 01:42:19 UTC  

We all can make it, that includes you.

2019-10-25 01:56:46 UTC  

I just want to be respected. No more airless compliments.

2019-10-25 01:57:14 UTC  

Damn it man

2019-10-25 01:57:24 UTC  

I feel like Arthur Morgan

2019-10-25 01:57:30 UTC  

I am afraid.

2019-10-25 02:07:02 UTC  

You'll be alright, we've all felt this way at one point. You can get through this

2019-10-25 02:12:02 UTC  

I’m suppose to be excited for my birthday but I’m prepared for dread

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/462997453181026307/637111094661349407/image0.png

2019-10-25 02:12:51 UTC  

People only like me out of pity. I’m treated like a hazard - a literal autist in public.

2019-10-25 02:13:18 UTC  

Maybe this is what it feels like to be autistic? Maybe they just don’t know?

2019-10-25 02:14:30 UTC  

When's your birthday?

2019-10-25 02:19:32 UTC  

It’s on the 27th of this month

2019-10-25 02:20:07 UTC  

I need to celebrate Alfred’s feast day as well which is on the 26th

2019-10-25 02:43:54 UTC  

3 more days.

2019-10-25 02:43:55 UTC  

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2019-10-25 02:44:07 UTC  

Good luck brother/\.