I did want to get into airsoft, paintball, piloting, boating and all sorts of other cool stuff. But nope. Work is more important than what I want to do.

My dad didn't have one for years, until he finally did the stereotype doctor thing and bought a boat. Now he looks forward to race days every week and gets as excited as a kid

@PanzerWrecker dude I play paintball, I go hiking, and I spend one weekend a month in the mountains. Youbhave to make time for yourself or you'll end up blowing your brains out

Is a man supposed to be happy? Do i deserve happiness? Do i need it? No... work is more important than what I want to do.

False

My dad always says to contribute to society. I just want out of society...

See, thats the thing lil homie, we were groomed to be dependant on the government and to fit into a perfect schedule, that shit doesnt work

So make time for you

You can contribute, but you need to unwind. Ever see a watch spring under too much tension? It snaps under the pressure and stops working

Now im being yelled at by him that i need to get cleaning and stop wasting my time doing stupid shit. Its my only day off, i work more than him...

*"we gotta get out of this place, if its the last thing we ever do"*

Self care bro. Everyone needs it. I head to the range, and also find catharsis cleaning my guns for hours. Find those things that bring you back to center

Guns, cleaning improvements to self

@PanzerWrecker how are you now

Ok i guess. Was helping my dad cleaned out part of the garage. Found his old weights. He said to put them back (as in we were putting things back so we could close the garage door) and i asked him "how about i start using them?" So now i have a weight and bar. 30 pound curls.

Good

Guys, my depression has faded.

What tf is going on?

Why am i scared that im about to play myself

Play yourself?

Like, i feel like i damn near already got too attached. Im seriously scared that I just fuckin teenage girled myself and fell for someone who just wanted sex

I'm glas tjat worked out so far. But has she talked to you since or has he gone ghost?

She's driving home atm. As far as ik atleast. She said she'd message me, and before she left, she said something to the effect of please don't block me after this

Idk man. I feel traumatized by love, but like the way my brain ie wired, i damn near need it

It be like that. But for now take a breath, do something else to distract yourself. And maybe in an hour or so ask if she got home ok. Show you care, and if it was more than a nail n bail

I told her that i had a great time and hoped she felt the same.

You have someone on your side

Someone who you like

Thats a great thing, man

Better lose a loved one than not have loved at all

Loneliness is a fucking bitch

Try your best

Just don't be like me

@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT I feel that

But ain't no use stressing over spilt milk

^^

You had the opportunity to love someone

Be grateful

You may think its nonsense, but it isn't

Ive had many

And honestly, i think id be bwtter ofd without then ever happening

I feel ya

Tbh I'm at the stage where I'm ready to settle down n shit

@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT thats a no no

I live a life without any fucking good opportunities

Idk man. I've been so fucked up because of past relationships. They literally tore my brain apart

And I lived a life having relationships with hookers

That's all I got

And It's disgusting

I could imagine it not being fun

But imho, id rather be alome than be mentally fucked up and abused by someone other than me

@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT never was

But you can always kick out

You can't force someone to get into a relationship, but nobody you can always get out of one

@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT

Idk, man. I don't think my brain works well around women

It straight spazzes and it makes me a ratger easy target

Neither mine

Don't try to understand them

Just follow the wind

Its not that. I just trust them too easily and believe things that in hindsight, i should have straight left over

Then your good

I can't trust'em

It's a nightmare

Not really. I still get terrors and ptsd from shit that happened years ago from females that weren't worth it

All of us

Exactly my point. Why cherish those who destroyed you as a person and made you hateful?

Enjoy them little things and stay positive

She said she wasn't going anywhere.

Can't count how many times I've heard that from basically ghosts now

It might be true. Just take it one step at a time, and try not to worry about it too much. If you need us we'll be here

I really appreciate you all. Thank you so much.

Anyone here ?

All ears

The government wants you to think that the government is behind everything

Pree-zent

Man I'm fucking stressed the fuck out. My art isnt getting fucking anywhere. Not that I aspire to be anything crazy. I'm just so fucking broke

I know that feeling bro

@Thomatorr, King of Ohio I produce music for a living and used to feel this way

My manager is always talking about how to use twitter to network to people

Been there but there's a lot you can do to make money at it

What art you make?

I make all sorts of stuff. I like to keep a varied style

All of it starts with mindset and understanding who you want your clients to be

I am just worried about not getting to training for the part time job

Send me some in the DM

@Thomatorr, King of Ohio do you use Patreon?

Nah

I dont quite get how those things work

Sign up for Patreon. The website explains everything on how it works. Excellent for artists of all kinds

Again, as someone who does high ticket freelance creative work for a living- it's less about tools and more about knowing who you're working for, what your goals are, and what you a want to be doing

When I get more time I wouldnt mind getting a chance to work that shit out with you Hobbit

Part of what I do is coaching but I mostly coach music producers like myself. I'd still be happy to chat with you tho

Thanks

DM me and I'll send you a link to my call calendar

I cant thank you guys enough for your time. Y'all motherfuckers dont even know me,and I sit here crying because you have all been so helpful. I've had people bullshit me out of art. Several people back out of commissions I started. I've sold my laptop,my old NES games,my collection of art books. Magic cards.

Most if not all of us know what it is to struggle. I'm going through some shit right now that could end any chance at a quality life for good. We're here for each other because we recognize that that it's all we got

@AKAlexei what's happening?

@Sir Harndes don't feel comfortable discussing it on public chat

It's serious, that's all I'll say

Got it