@thedarkness05 thats the thing, it isn't other people putting me down its coming from within. Im 20 too

Work is becoming more fun than life

Welcome to the jungle bud.

Ok, so why is that? Is it because you're growing out of them naturally, or is it a societal anxiety to abandon that stuff?

@Hellhound6 its the one without fun and games

But seriously, you need to get out and find stimulation

Its not me growing out of them, its wanting to continue the interest but not. Does that make any sense?

Yeah

I lost interest in pretty much everything I used to do for a bit. But I forced myself to get out even when I didn't want to

Like i want to keep building and playing video games, but i feel pressured to stop because thats for kids, and blacksmithing, theres no market for it in my area. Yeah i can fix the neighbors shovel for like 20 minutes of labor or she can drive 5 minutes to the ace and buy a new one

Fuck that

Dude keep up blacksmithing n shit if it brings you joy

You gotta rekindle those passions, otherwise life can get a bit dull. Do what makes you happy, even new things. I started dnd when I first got into college, its never too late to get a new hobby

I did want to get into airsoft, paintball, piloting, boating and all sorts of other cool stuff. But nope. Work is more important than what I want to do.

My dad didn't have one for years, until he finally did the stereotype doctor thing and bought a boat. Now he looks forward to race days every week and gets as excited as a kid

@PanzerWrecker dude I play paintball, I go hiking, and I spend one weekend a month in the mountains. Youbhave to make time for yourself or you'll end up blowing your brains out

Is a man supposed to be happy? Do i deserve happiness? Do i need it? No... work is more important than what I want to do.

False

My dad always says to contribute to society. I just want out of society...

See, thats the thing lil homie, we were groomed to be dependant on the government and to fit into a perfect schedule, that shit doesnt work

So make time for you

You can contribute, but you need to unwind. Ever see a watch spring under too much tension? It snaps under the pressure and stops working

Now im being yelled at by him that i need to get cleaning and stop wasting my time doing stupid shit. Its my only day off, i work more than him...

*"we gotta get out of this place, if its the last thing we ever do"*

Self care bro. Everyone needs it. I head to the range, and also find catharsis cleaning my guns for hours. Find those things that bring you back to center

Guns, cleaning improvements to self

@PanzerWrecker how are you now

Ok i guess. Was helping my dad cleaned out part of the garage. Found his old weights. He said to put them back (as in we were putting things back so we could close the garage door) and i asked him "how about i start using them?" So now i have a weight and bar. 30 pound curls.

Good

Guys, my depression has faded.

What tf is going on?

Why am i scared that im about to play myself

Play yourself?

Like, i feel like i damn near already got too attached. Im seriously scared that I just fuckin teenage girled myself and fell for someone who just wanted sex

I'm glas tjat worked out so far. But has she talked to you since or has he gone ghost?

She's driving home atm. As far as ik atleast. She said she'd message me, and before she left, she said something to the effect of please don't block me after this

Idk man. I feel traumatized by love, but like the way my brain ie wired, i damn near need it

It be like that. But for now take a breath, do something else to distract yourself. And maybe in an hour or so ask if she got home ok. Show you care, and if it was more than a nail n bail

I told her that i had a great time and hoped she felt the same.

You have someone on your side

Someone who you like

Thats a great thing, man