I don't think that's what I fear the most, it's hurting or killing others and having to live with it, rotting away in a jail cell

The crash from colorado, the sounds of the explosions, tires blowing up from the heat, conscious and unconscious bodies trapped and burning to death, the fire and smoke, the sirens echoing across the town, people running through the smoke, bodies being dragged out

And seeing that burning truck the other day reduced to smoldering debris, police cars all around it, 2 bodies covered in sheets, officers holding up sheets to block the view of traffic, blood and bits everywhere. I was driving that same road, over the same ice, the same snow, could've been me and my codriver

Or that truck sitting there with its flashers on, a motorcycle on the road a few hundred feet down, a mangled body pinned under the trailer, police and ambulances all around

I think about all the people I've put in danger

I hear screams and see myself crashing in my dreams, sometimes it wakes me up at night

I'm surprised they gave him that much time, jeez

https://youtu.be/MNYa6GEG4g8

Okay this band is Doomer as fuck

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3S8S9laQzZg

>And when everything that you do loses beauty
>When everything's taboo and unkind
>And the only thing you ever dream of is sharpening knives
>Sharpening knives

Kind of relatable, I guess

Like.. I guess a form of the black pill. Things we cherish about the world becoming symbols of hate, and banned. Republicans and nationalists fired for perfectly reasonable wants for this nation. 'You're just a Nazi. You don't matter.'. Many people becoming increasingly disillusioned with the world, just biding their time before they go out to try and right the wrongs of the world.

'Sometimes.. Reasonable people must do unreasonable things."

... That's the only sleep medicine induced rant you'll get from me today

Here's something from KSP on my current mission

That gave me a particular feel

https://i.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/001/401/033/9d7.png

Idk probably more accurate. Either way I've lost control of the plane kek

@Higura o shid you play ksp

@country doggo yeah, I bought it back in 2013 during early access. Though I'm just now getting into it hardcore with a lot of mods. Just managed to get a probe to land in minmus recently

My grandma died

Shit sucks dudes

Damn dude. How old was she?

80s

It was time but still

She was one of those old Okie tough women

It's never easy, even when you know it's getting close to the end. You talk to her often/visit much?

I did a lot as a kid, she wasn’t my biological grandma but My step moms mom but I knew her my entire life and she attended all my major@things

Sent me letters and I sent her puzzles etc

Ahh. I know how that is. I was raised by my grandfather, and while he was not related to me, he was still family.

While it's probably stupid coming from a Doomer like me, try to remember the good things about her and the positive memories. She might be gone, but it sounds like she probably had a great long life.

We're always here for you if you need us, dude. Just cause we're all strangers doesn't mean we can't care.

Thanks, glad she died before I went to AK

Also found a fucking Red light ticket in the mail

Fuck me

?

"Red light ticket"

What for?

Not stopping at a light, did a right turn and didn’t stop

Well that's stupid