Message from @Higura
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But you ever just sit and really think about what it means to die, everything coming to fiery and painful end
I don't think that's what I fear the most, it's hurting or killing others and having to live with it, rotting away in a jail cell
The crash from colorado, the sounds of the explosions, tires blowing up from the heat, conscious and unconscious bodies trapped and burning to death, the fire and smoke, the sirens echoing across the town, people running through the smoke, bodies being dragged out
And seeing that burning truck the other day reduced to smoldering debris, police cars all around it, 2 bodies covered in sheets, officers holding up sheets to block the view of traffic, blood and bits everywhere. I was driving that same road, over the same ice, the same snow, could've been me and my codriver
Or that truck sitting there with its flashers on, a motorcycle on the road a few hundred feet down, a mangled body pinned under the trailer, police and ambulances all around
I think about all the people I've put in danger
I hear screams and see myself crashing in my dreams, sometimes it wakes me up at night
I'm surprised they gave him that much time, jeez
Okay this band is Doomer as fuck
>And when everything that you do loses beauty
>When everything's taboo and unkind
>And the only thing you ever dream of is sharpening knives
>Sharpening knives
Kind of relatable, I guess
Like.. I guess a form of the black pill. Things we cherish about the world becoming symbols of hate, and banned. Republicans and nationalists fired for perfectly reasonable wants for this nation. 'You're just a Nazi. You don't matter.'. Many people becoming increasingly disillusioned with the world, just biding their time before they go out to try and right the wrongs of the world.
'Sometimes.. Reasonable people must do unreasonable things."
... That's the only sleep medicine induced rant you'll get from me today
Here's something from KSP on my current mission
That gave me a particular feel
@Higura o shid you play ksp
@country doggo yeah, I bought it back in 2013 during early access. Though I'm just now getting into it hardcore with a lot of mods. Just managed to get a probe to land in minmus recently
My grandma died
Shit sucks dudes
Damn dude. How old was she?
80s
It was time but still
She was one of those old Okie tough women
It's never easy, even when you know it's getting close to the end. You talk to her often/visit much?
I did a lot as a kid, she wasn’t my biological grandma but My step moms mom but I knew her my entire life and she attended all my major@things
Sent me letters and I sent her puzzles etc
Ahh. I know how that is. I was raised by my grandfather, and while he was not related to me, he was still family.
While it's probably stupid coming from a Doomer like me, try to remember the good things about her and the positive memories. She might be gone, but it sounds like she probably had a great long life.
We're always here for you if you need us, dude. Just cause we're all strangers doesn't mean we can't care.
Thanks, glad she died before I went to AK
Also found a fucking Red light ticket in the mail
Fuck me
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"Red light ticket"
What for?
Not stopping at a light, did a right turn and didn’t stop