I feel like I'm losing my mind, having terrible paranoia and constant nightmares over nothing

I need to stay away from pol for a while

This is that feeling I had after the nz shooting

This job is alot of stress and I'm feeling lost and left for dead out here. I wanna be home for a while or get back in some sort of routine

Tfw so hard to forget her that I took Xanax as an attempt

@country doggo dude stay off pol, it will drive you wild

Most people in at the deep-end are reasonably far off the deep-end mentally.

So take comfort you're in the sunlight, whether it casts a shadow or not you're not crazily living in darkness for no reason.

My own dad used to make me crazy paranoid, as he was into a branch of that. David Icke stuff, i was reasonably impressionable so i thought about it and worked myself up. I have my own set of views now but they aren't aligned with his.

Infact i cut off all contact with him two years ago, i simply don't engage to talk to him at all and we haven't seen each other face to face for that time. I feel bad about my paternal grandparents and cousins but there's not a lot I can do about it.

Mfw my boss might just quit on me from something that isn't in my control

Reminder that people care about you and don't want you to kill yourself.

Nothing happened to me I just wanted to say this lol.

i feel like a fucking failure

i wouldn't be surprised if i fell flat on my ass one day

Oh

I’m always on my ass

@Some Polish-Hungarian Guy
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Hell ye brother

My clown ass is calling up.walm.and see if who ever is in charge of applications is their so i can as them to review my entry

Might do cvs as well

Which position at Walmart did you apply for

Stoking shelves, getting stuff from the backrooms

Already explained what i applied for

Oops

Yee

I’ll kiss you

rip your soul man hope you can survive walmart

Eh the walmart i might work at is in a small town, and again I'm only stocking not working the registers

Although i hope i get cvs as that's way lighther than walm

Almost no one there at cvs when i went to get boomer juice

if day bad dont bring self down because of it. be happy that you experienced bad day and learn from it. Ivan knows tomorrow is good day for you. Hope for good day. Ivan wish you best. - Ivan

>be me
>look at stuff on ebay that want to buy
>check if its at walmart
>yeah, but like 20% more
>gear up in *face exposed* helmet / backpack / protective gear and take bike because quicker
>go to store in middle of night so i dont have to deal with people
>park right with a camera pointing at my bike so nobody steals it or holds me up
>go inside
>theres fucking robots cleaning with like 10 cameras attached to them
>theres more robots with camera totems that are scanning the isles
>ok im sure they fucking have my fingerprints on camera lmao
>browse around for 20 minutes looking at electronics, not doing anything sus
>go take a lap around and look at some bicycle stuff
>small guy comes up to me "hey can you take off your helmet?"
>Im like (Lifts up clear shield) Does this help?
>Haha yeah, ***You know what's been happening recently and stuff, so.***
>mfw
>Face exposed helmet
>Could not hide any sort of firearm in my gear
>Im literally fucking reflective
>Nobody is in the fucking store
>Ive been chill if the staff ask me whats up
>Burst out a chuckle in sheer fucking awe
>"You can look in my bag if you want"
>He is like "ah nanananananana" and i notice his WagiePhone that wal-mart gave him is recording
>mfw AGAIN
>Alright, you be safe!
>you guys have been watching my ass on camera for 30 minutes now as i pick up stuff and browse like 100 Normie Skill
>pick up a few more items and leave
>got my bang got my school supplies got some electronics im good

Damn, this shit is getting out of hand. This is the first time i've experienced something like this. I know its normal shit but still, weird to accually experience the repercussions first-hand.

I hate cameras and facial recognition, so this really just got on my nerves aswell. I dont want to give up my privacy and my right to privacy because i've got a tiny ass flat backpack

Bruh what walmart are you going to that has robots woth cameras

^

What type of blade runner shit is that

Imma look it up

But its fucking real