Message from @Busto
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It doesn't particularly help that my mother is pretty much clinically insane and it runs in the family, so attachment problems are just an unfortunate fate
My boss is rad though, he's great
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Feeling really shitty
Probs not the place for that, my b
Fuck sorry maine
It's aight. I'm getting back to it now.
Time to tussle
"I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinda honk."
I am the angriest and most suicidal I think ive ever been, I feel like I'm about to have an aneurysm
Whatever the issue is, killing yourself ain't the answer. We all gotta make it, dude.
It's a combination of things, but what it boils down to is basically taking scorched earth to most of my previous habits and social circles in order to really start fixing myself
I work 60 hours a week which is miserable in and of itself, but I'm not in my home city so no real close external friends and the person I do have the closet connection with is really clingy and herself an emotional wreck
It's good times, don't get me wrong, but she basically needs me to be her anchor constantly, but i'm getting fat and a bunch of other issues that I need time for in order to fix. So I either continue on and get obese or I break off possibly the only thing that kept me sane/alive during the dark times of the last few years
And the boss I work with is just the most obese, disgusting, toothless hick boomer you can think of, but he moves with all the grace and elegance of a freight train in slow motion. It is fucking painful to put up with the constant double standard of having to keep myself busy while basically being in arms reach of the deaf old bastard, while also having nothing to do because he's the most union fuck you can think of.
TL:DR Work too much, need to burn down my unhealthy but fun social circles/habits to really get fixed
@Foogals sorry you're in that tough spot man
but you seem to know what steps you need to take next
key part of all this keep a leveled head and not think too negatively
is there anything specific u need advice with?
Really just trying to reconcile myself to having to be the one to initiate a breakup
the boss thing will pass, slowly
but i'm stuck on 60s until probably April/may
especially 'cause I don't know how safe she'll bee
so i'm emotionally hostage
Hay fags the reason I've been ghosting this server is because today is the final day
I'm kicking my brother out of the house
His gambling has gotten so bad he barely pays the bills he's fucking supposed to
My momnis taking it hard
Rough dude, any way to get him help?