Message from @semper
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I talked to his ex, she's very nice, she just said that he's a jerk
She gets my problems though
Also talked to my boss about it and he's going to try to change my hours around so I see him less so I feel bad a lot less
My boss is very cool and understanding about these sort of things
I started crying while explaining it to him and he didn't belittle me or treat me badly, which was nice
Why would he hate you?
Because I'm a fucking annoying subhuman lmfao
Who said that?
You don't seem annoying, not to me atleast.
No one said it, no one needs to tell me the truth if I know it lol
But you're not annoying?
Sheep you're not annoying trust me
Also good to hear that your boss understands the situation you're going through and is willing to change schedules. Not everyone can get lucky with an understanding boss like that
It doesn't particularly help that my mother is pretty much clinically insane and it runs in the family, so attachment problems are just an unfortunate fate
My boss is rad though, he's great
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Feeling really shitty
Probs not the place for that, my b
Fuck sorry maine
It's aight. I'm getting back to it now.
Time to tussle
"I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinda honk."
I am the angriest and most suicidal I think ive ever been, I feel like I'm about to have an aneurysm
Whatever the issue is, killing yourself ain't the answer. We all gotta make it, dude.
It's a combination of things, but what it boils down to is basically taking scorched earth to most of my previous habits and social circles in order to really start fixing myself
I work 60 hours a week which is miserable in and of itself, but I'm not in my home city so no real close external friends and the person I do have the closet connection with is really clingy and herself an emotional wreck
It's good times, don't get me wrong, but she basically needs me to be her anchor constantly, but i'm getting fat and a bunch of other issues that I need time for in order to fix. So I either continue on and get obese or I break off possibly the only thing that kept me sane/alive during the dark times of the last few years
And the boss I work with is just the most obese, disgusting, toothless hick boomer you can think of, but he moves with all the grace and elegance of a freight train in slow motion. It is fucking painful to put up with the constant double standard of having to keep myself busy while basically being in arms reach of the deaf old bastard, while also having nothing to do because he's the most union fuck you can think of.
TL:DR Work too much, need to burn down my unhealthy but fun social circles/habits to really get fixed
@Foogals sorry you're in that tough spot man