Message from @Some Polish-Hungarian Guy
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and the people in that group are the people i've run into who are just A++
for whatever reason
I don't have any irl friends
my friends in the army fucked me over
it's hard when your time gets pinned like that too
the ones I have mostly just fell into toe same group in high school. handful of people from different grades. most went off to do their thing, but about 6 of us stuck
then i merged that group with the group of friends i made in college
I only have internet friends
and any of those guys can bring people in as long as they're not sketch
i mostly do too these days^
almost all of them are in different states
have one of them about 5 minutes away though
I typically have bad feelings about most people I meet irl
normally, I end up being right about them
it sucks
you're always told to give people a chance, but most of the time they don't deserve it
and the ones who do need that chance, most people just miss it and think they're shit
most don't even give me a fucking chance
the social evaluation game is in a really fucked state
I'm too fucked to socialize, tbh
almost all of the things we're told are "good signs" are things shitty people go out of their way to try really hard to express
i have a hard time too^
i see too much
i don't want to just look right through someone's soul at a glance
i don't need that shit ten times a day every day
I have a hard time looking into someone's eyes, because I feel they're just reading my thoughts, or just looking through me
I don't like it
i don't either
don't like being watched
fucking hate cameras
I could only maintain eye contact with someone I trust though
i like that I have a job that's away from my co-workers and I can just get it done
can't wait to leave the army
dunno what I want to do after
but I just want to leave.
I've seen too fucking much
do whatever buys you the most time if you don't know before then
Parents noticed the bags under my eyes. Said that i should take a break and try to get some sleep. Too bad there isn't enough sleep to remove the bags under my eyes
I just want money
shit man