That's just the short list.

Were I to get into a relationship with a girl I would have to know she's as slanted as I am.

Oh, and I was 500 pounds at one point.

I assure that exists.

Oh it does

Or they do I should say

I met one

Love of my life

So let me just say two things:

loves come and go big dawg T.boomer advice but its true

One. Do not go MGTOW. I have vast sympathy for them, but it is also a dead end.

She literally helped me out of my shell to the point where I could socialise without clamming up in paranoia that people were secretly laughing and judging me

It's hard to describe

pro tip everyone does that crap its human nature

She knew me better than I did

Yes, I know that but I meant more along the lines of them chuckling and pointing at me while my back was turned

asshats are gonna be asshats no matter what

That sensation where you fear everyone loathes you and tolerates your presence because it's hilarious to see you try to fit in

^ lives there

take the Guido pill senpi

Two. Self improvement is important, but do *not* shame yourself for not being perfect. You can work on more than one thing at a time. Do not wait until you're perfect. Even if you're a NEET living in your parents basement.

There are still people who will love you.

focus on your qualities, the ones you like about yourself, that make you a quality person and focus on them

we ❤ you you big faggot

I've been working since I was 14, I'm not ashamed of myself but yes, at the same time, I used to feel crippling paranoia in social events

I helped keep my family over the breadline, so to speak

Have you ever had a clinical diagnosis?

No.

trusting the phama jew

I've thought about it

If it's a problem you should.

<:Merchant:437035074249162772>

that might be a good place to start, therapy has helped me a lot

I'm mostly fine with myself now if that makes sense

@REEDSEEJBAMBAM imma kick you

I didn't get any diagnosis until a few years after I was married, but I'm on some medication that has been life altering, in a good way.

Where before I'd be shivering with doubt, now I'm, not apathetic but I'm able to compartmentalise emotions and deal with them later

@Deleted User just because im laying down based boomer knowledge dont be mad

also it helps to keep in mind that you dont like everyone you meet, so its only rational that not every person you meet is going to like you either

Oh I'm fully aware of that

^