Message from @насильственное убийство
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Like, a lot
King I will be here to help you feel as confident as I can. Hell if I lived any where near you I'd be over often
Thanks fam
I'd invite myself to that hoedown - but, same distance problem
I cant get confident enough
What have you been up to this past month my man?
It takes small steps
When I lost my mind because I was gaslightened-narcissistically mind fucked by my best friend of 15 years. I wrote all over the walls as a way to have a place to re-enforce what I knew of myself. I wrote all the good things about myself I could muster. I wrote the bad things and how I can be more aware of my negative habits and how i can change them. I wrote what I dreamed about. I wrote what small victories I've made in the past. We will always battle against ourselves. We must take the reigns from our unoccupied mind and demand it to submit to our will. That will take the best of your strength. Catch yourself feeling that way,then try to do even the smallest joy producing thing and get lost in it.
@INNYGMATYK nothing really
I read a bit
But most of the things I really wanted to do I didn't do anything about
I feel that - I'm lacking and behind too
but I'm taking all the steps I can
and it helps to remember or remind yourself who you're doing it for.
Like Tomater said ; take inventory of your assets. All of them. You have at least some, trust me.
And then you know what you're working with.
And, once you break down your problems, you'll find the tools and what you have with how to use em.
idfk dude - but please trust me you will find a way.
Yeah
But there are things I really want to do but I dont have the personality nor the hability to do so
Its not that you may or may not deserve it
Its whether or not you can find it in and for yourself
It exists in us. there are just complications in there
Never be worried about getting medical help.
I am sure a good bit of us come from a rough background,and those things as a child,really fracture our perception of the world and of ourselves.
So taking the time to go back and evaluate the wrong doings and the pain is worth it. I got good relief knowing that I'm partially manic and everything I worry about is turned up into a 10 by my fucking stupid dick smoking brain
and we do give too much power to our unoccupied brains
its like busting an employee fucking off while your the manager,come back " Oh look this fucker went on lunch early" or " this dumb sum bitch is on facebook "
Damn dude....
You seek your own hapiness my dude
Im just too unlucky to find it
Did I say something wrong fam ?
i don't know how I should feel now.... or how I should proceed.....
@Thomatorr, King of Ohio I get what you're saying, it's good stuff tbh. I just feel confused about myself and my own happiness
I'll tell you what I do
I kind of do that Dr.Strange shit. I just kind of imagine myself out of my body and examine the problems and why I react to them,then I wonder why I am holding onto them and try to find the simplest thing that'd bring me joy at the moment.
Like, mental projection stuff?
Yeah
I just go "Tom,do we really need to hold onto this problem ? Look at how its treating you,and how you are reacting to it,do you want to give a probability of a negative experience power over you ?"
I dont/ because normally the worst never happens