Message from @Thomatorr, King of Ohio
Discord ID: 639641368146345985
Its easy to feel bad for yourself.
Gotta keep going. You have time
Grind for it
Your ADOS is weak - but subte enough that anyone will take it
Self doubt only comes from fractured senses of self and iron ideas of this person we expected we should be. Doubt is the killer of dreams and I don't want you to ever give up Kings. Some where along the line,you lost faith in yourself. But it can always be reclaimed. You just have to trust yourself more.
It's all gonna burn - but only **you** decide how flammable you are.
^
Use the fire for positive change
I wish there were more Terrorbirds around but
let's be real - we'd btfo that beak n feathers. . .
@Thomatorr, King of Ohio there are things I know I can do
But there are other things that im sure i cant
Like, a lot
King I will be here to help you feel as confident as I can. Hell if I lived any where near you I'd be over often
Thanks fam
I'd invite myself to that hoedown - but, same distance problem
I cant get confident enough
What have you been up to this past month my man?
When I lost my mind because I was gaslightened-narcissistically mind fucked by my best friend of 15 years. I wrote all over the walls as a way to have a place to re-enforce what I knew of myself. I wrote all the good things about myself I could muster. I wrote the bad things and how I can be more aware of my negative habits and how i can change them. I wrote what I dreamed about. I wrote what small victories I've made in the past. We will always battle against ourselves. We must take the reigns from our unoccupied mind and demand it to submit to our will. That will take the best of your strength. Catch yourself feeling that way,then try to do even the smallest joy producing thing and get lost in it.
@INNYGMATYK nothing really
I read a bit
But most of the things I really wanted to do I didn't do anything about
I feel that - I'm lacking and behind too
but I'm taking all the steps I can
and it helps to remember or remind yourself who you're doing it for.
Like Tomater said ; take inventory of your assets. All of them. You have at least some, trust me.
And then you know what you're working with.
And, once you break down your problems, you'll find the tools and what you have with how to use em.
idfk dude - but please trust me you will find a way.
Yeah
But there are things I really want to do but I dont have the personality nor the hability to do so
Do I really deserve happiness? serious question
Its not that you may or may not deserve it
Its whether or not you can find it in and for yourself
It exists in us. there are just complications in there
Never be worried about getting medical help.
I am sure a good bit of us come from a rough background,and those things as a child,really fracture our perception of the world and of ourselves.
So taking the time to go back and evaluate the wrong doings and the pain is worth it. I got good relief knowing that I'm partially manic and everything I worry about is turned up into a 10 by my fucking stupid dick smoking brain