I know what its like to be constantly shamed for being a man.

How did you take the workplace after that?

take the workplace?

Did you want to be there? How did u handle the situation?

I worked as hard as I could.

and kept working

I think that is tha national spirit you guys got

There were times I couldnt sleep from the pain but you keep going.

Not frok your mother

from*

What kept you going?

Well my faith probably

Ive always believed in God and got saved on my own when I was a young kid.

That's powerful

As a child I saw the irreducible complexities of nature and knew that it was God's work.

Wow

This is the natural revelation from God.

The bible is God's special revelation.

Hmm

I love it

I was baptized catholic but due to my mothers situation with her depression and poverty, I wasn’t brought up in church

But I believed in god and noticed the same you speak of

When I was a kid I loved nature and animals. I would catch them all like pokemon.

How did she practice her beliefs?

Lol

I was the same

I still love animals and plants

And back then animals were my only friends

@crzmkr my mom?

Yes

Hm well she didn’t really talk to me much when I was a kid, I was alone a lot

Her depression had her sleep most of the day

Huff da

That could not be easy

Where did you find motivation for life?

There are some things I miss from childhood but honestly it feels like the older I get the easier it became, or at least just these adult years

Idk. I tried killing myself twice but they didn’t work out. But after my last attempt which was at 19, I started to discover strength

How?

They were both overdoses from medication.

I ment how did you discover you own strenght?

The first time I overdosed right before I got locked up, but the police that took me in must have found out after they had already put me in a cell. And the second time I was at my ex bfs house but he found out I did and his mom took me to er. But it wasn’t expected bc in both cases I didn’t tell anyone that I did