I was on antidepressants for about a week

My memory was shot, too; I think that's what made me realize, especially when I thought of how sharp the world was when I was a kid

and I was like "hell no"

and stopped

I knew it was unnatural

and it felt unnatural

Don't do mind-altering drugs, folks. Antidepressents, dope, porn- stay away from it all

I got high a few days ago and just sat in my truck listening to music

The craziest part about my depersonalization experience

was that it hit instantly in the same spot every time

the far side of my middle school track

Weed is way better than antidepressants

i walked in that area and it hit me instantly

True, but you should strive to not depend on any substance

Agreed

sounds like a kind of self fulfilling prophecy

like going there you associated/remembered how it make you feel

then it triggers it

@Solipsistic Vinarchy Just shows you the power of the mind. That's awful. Sounds like middle school was crushing and you associated that with emptiness or whatever

*Frued.mpg intensifies*

ya

middle school was rough

I actually started feeling it while you were talking about it.

I was homeschooled in middle school, thank God.

YA

Got better at fighting it back tho

I can do that too

project myself into it

crazy shit

how this works

I remember specifically this one time

I had my "final" for gym and we had to run the track

and soon as I ran into that area I mentally knew "Here it comes"

and boom

it hit

yea

I'm to the point now I can hold it back and get past it most of the time

still hard tho

I've been totally better for the past few years, which I'm very grateful for

But for a couple years in High School, I'd always be in a bit of a mist

And sometimes sink full-on into nothingness, I don't really know how else to describe it