Message from @Solipsistic Vinarchy
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I got high a few days ago and just sat in my truck listening to music
The craziest part about my depersonalization experience
was that it hit instantly in the same spot every time
the far side of my middle school track
Weed is way better than antidepressants
i walked in that area and it hit me instantly
True, but you should strive to not depend on any substance
Agreed
sounds like a kind of self fulfilling prophecy
like going there you associated/remembered how it make you feel
then it triggers it
@Solipsistic Vinarchy Just shows you the power of the mind. That's awful. Sounds like middle school was crushing and you associated that with emptiness or whatever
*Frued.mpg intensifies*
ya
middle school was rough
I actually started feeling it while you were talking about it.
I was homeschooled in middle school, thank God.
YA
Got better at fighting it back tho
I can do that too
crazy shit
how this works
I remember specifically this one time
I had my "final" for gym and we had to run the track
and soon as I ran into that area I mentally knew "Here it comes"
and boom
it hit
yea
I'm to the point now I can hold it back and get past it most of the time
still hard tho
I've been totally better for the past few years, which I'm very grateful for
But for a couple years in High School, I'd always be in a bit of a mist
And sometimes sink full-on into nothingness, I don't really know how else to describe it
I wonder if this has always existed or if it's something new
I feel like most mental disorders are primarily modern problems
victims of the modern world
Dude dusty turned me on to Think Like A Cop on youtube and videos are legit. Not to distract but yeah
I think mental disorders have already existed but are heightened today because of leisure and lack of purpose and lack of church
it's almost like like this evil in the world bleeds off and can effect your mind
For example, PTSD didn't exist before modern warfare. I think depression is the same idea, but a disease of modern civilian life.
Just yelled at cunt sister for having loud ass conversations outside my room at midnight.