Pick up that can

See I wouldn't have been a minor for the second time since I was 19, but it was a violation of probation from the original charges of when I was 17. So I was still in the juvenile system

What was the charge?

The ground might fall from under you if you know

Murder

Lmao

attempted

On who?

my mom

Oof

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Stabbed her

Shot through the heart

And your to blame

You give love

A bad name

D:

Yeah thats what happens when you don't forgive your mamas

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Have you forgiven her?

Yes

And has she forgiven you?

She says she has

She actually said so right after it happened

Do you guys get along?

she tried to stop them from taking me away lol

Eh we'e civil mostly

sometimes we get along but

she's bipolar

literally

so its hard to access her mood

You have any siblings?

which makes me just mostly try to keep to myself and watch what I say around her so I don't offend

no

i would have butttt

she had two abortions

:(

they would have been different daddies tho

I’m in vc

Your mom crazy

xD

She still is

Hop in @kernalkrackerz

but miles and miles better than what she was when I was a kid

You think you inherited her crazy?

Ah, the anger I got from her was my struggle until I found out about jesse tbh

But I don't actually have bipolar disorder so thats a blessing

Good to hear

I know a whole family who is bipolar

So idk if it's a heritible disorder

Or genetic

Get on that

it's all been unlearning ever since I was put in jail and immediately after. which was when I was 21. Going to jail was a blessing too for that reason, my eyes were opened to who I had become.

21 when i got out i mean

Bi-polar is maternal. My grand mother was, and my aunt was.

How long were you in jail?

hmm

gotta count i cant rlly remember lol

4 years

well it was alil broken up

in total 4-5

counting probation and such

Damn

Hardened criminal here

We’ve got a badass over here

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No I was blessed c:

I was protected when I did my time

for the most part

I got sent to adult prison but they kept me in the hole due to my age

so I didn't get to mingle with the general population

Damn so your mom sent you to jail

the neighbor heard her screaming and he called

we always lived in apartment buildings

Did you really think you would of killed your mother?

I thought about it before & I'm just not sure

I think I would have stopped, but she thinks I would have kept going

Did you try to stab her or something

But I know when I heard our neighbor shouting about what's going on, I got snapped out of it and thats when she ran away

Yeah I did

I stabbed her 3 times I believe, twice in the shoulder and once in the neck

With a kitchen knife?

Yes

Damn that's a really fucked situation

Yeah, it was

You were possessed by you devil

There was a lot of things happening at the time that drove me to that breakdown with her

Your

Haha I thought of that before

because when it happened that I snapped, I felt like I couldn't control my body anymore

so like I said when the neighbor yelled, it was like my eyes opened

Have you ever been that angry since?

I think it was also just the accumulation of traumas from childhood, a lot from her and others with life and family

Not angry enough to try to kill someone no

put my hands on someone, yeah lol

but I didn't succumb to it

It's hard to control your anger

I've gotten good at controlling it

Most things don't bother me at all these days

It's like jesse says you become what you hate. I hated my mom growing up and I hated how angry she was, how she put her anger on me. So I became her so to speak