Message from @kernalkrackerz
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Damn so your mom sent you to jail
the neighbor heard her screaming and he called
we always lived in apartment buildings
Did you really think you would of killed your mother?
I thought about it before & I'm just not sure
I think I would have stopped, but she thinks I would have kept going
Did you try to stab her or something
But I know when I heard our neighbor shouting about what's going on, I got snapped out of it and thats when she ran away
Yeah I did
I stabbed her 3 times I believe, twice in the shoulder and once in the neck
With a kitchen knife?
Yes
Damn that's a really fucked situation
Yeah, it was
You were possessed by you devil
There was a lot of things happening at the time that drove me to that breakdown with her
Your
Haha I thought of that before
because when it happened that I snapped, I felt like I couldn't control my body anymore
so like I said when the neighbor yelled, it was like my eyes opened
I think it was also just the accumulation of traumas from childhood, a lot from her and others with life and family
Not angry enough to try to kill someone no
put my hands on someone, yeah lol
but I didn't succumb to it
It's hard to control your anger
I've gotten good at controlling it
Most things don't bother me at all these days
It's like jesse says you become what you hate. I hated my mom growing up and I hated how angry she was, how she put her anger on me. So I became her so to speak
Yeah honestly watching jesses church made the biggest progress
If you listened to jesse 10 years ago do you think you would have done things differently
Or is it because of your experiences that your open to listen and change
I think it's a really good chance I would have. I've never changed, as far as my character and morals, so that makes me think if I heard of him sooner, a lot of things could have been different.
it was what kept me away from drugs and men
But even though it's bad what I did, I don't regret it because it still was what was needed to happen to transform me and force me to wake up
God works in strange ways
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@kernalkrackerz most likely no, I would have rejected the message probably. I was a totally different person 10 years ago. I think god’s timing in me finding Jesse was perfect. When I would need it most
I feel the same way
It’s amazing the way God works in our lives. In my life I know it has been thru a lot of little way and I look back and can see his hand working in my life.
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