I got sent to adult prison but they kept me in the hole due to my age

so I didn't get to mingle with the general population

Damn so your mom sent you to jail

the neighbor heard her screaming and he called

we always lived in apartment buildings

Did you really think you would of killed your mother?

I thought about it before & I'm just not sure

I think I would have stopped, but she thinks I would have kept going

Did you try to stab her or something

But I know when I heard our neighbor shouting about what's going on, I got snapped out of it and thats when she ran away

Yeah I did

I stabbed her 3 times I believe, twice in the shoulder and once in the neck

With a kitchen knife?

Yes

Damn that's a really fucked situation

Yeah, it was

You were possessed by you devil

There was a lot of things happening at the time that drove me to that breakdown with her

Your

Haha I thought of that before

because when it happened that I snapped, I felt like I couldn't control my body anymore

so like I said when the neighbor yelled, it was like my eyes opened

Have you ever been that angry since?

I think it was also just the accumulation of traumas from childhood, a lot from her and others with life and family

Not angry enough to try to kill someone no

put my hands on someone, yeah lol

but I didn't succumb to it

It's hard to control your anger

I've gotten good at controlling it

Most things don't bother me at all these days

It's like jesse says you become what you hate. I hated my mom growing up and I hated how angry she was, how she put her anger on me. So I became her so to speak

Yeah honestly watching jesses church made the biggest progress

If you listened to jesse 10 years ago do you think you would have done things differently

Or is it because of your experiences that your open to listen and change

I think it's a really good chance I would have. I've never changed, as far as my character and morals, so that makes me think if I heard of him sooner, a lot of things could have been different.

it was what kept me away from drugs and men

But even though it's bad what I did, I don't regret it because it still was what was needed to happen to transform me and force me to wake up

God works in strange ways

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@kernalkrackerz most likely no, I would have rejected the message probably. I was a totally different person 10 years ago. I think god’s timing in me finding Jesse was perfect. When I would need it most

I feel the same way