You want friends? Make em. Want to change your personality? Do it. Wanna get in touch with your emotions? Get in touch

You can do these things

And that's what's important

I can't even stand the sound of my own name

Then you need to fix that problem first

I don't know what to say. I've hated myself for so long I can't even bring myself to even image any other way.

That's why everyone is telling you to find something that give you purpose. You'll start feeling useful

I wish I could. But it is not that easy. I live out in the woods very far. There is nothing here, anywhere here for me. I do not have money to just get up and go somewhere.

You like music?

Download a DAW and teach yourself how to compose.

Ultimately whether or not you believe something is possible holds you back more then whether or not it actually is dude.

I was a percussionist years ago, and can play some guitar/balalaika, and some piano. But it is not enjoyable for me, nothing is. I have been like this for so long that I have to force myself to do nearly anything. Things I found enjoyable in my youth I now dread.

What's a balalaika?

@Biohazard6520 why is that, anything happen or you just in a rut

I just don't enjoy things anymore. I'm so mentally screwed up that I can't make myself enjoy anything. That may be from so many years of fighting with my mother, and her getting mad and saying things like "I don't deserve anything" or "I don't deserve happiness", stuff like that.

For as long as I remember if I enjoy something I ruin it for myself.

It's as if a voice in the back of my head is yelling at me telling me I do not deserve to be happy, or "how dare I enjoy something".

Living trapped in a hell inside my own head.

you should meditate on it, reflect on why you think like that, i belive everyone deserves to be happy my man even you

and if you ever having a bad day you can DM if you want

or just slap it in here and tag me

also try to change your way of thinking its very important to reflect on these things and ask your self why

Remember

Uselfulness CAN be changed

If you feel that you're not useful and do not know how to do anything right, you can change that, no matter what

No matter what person, it CAN be changed

The only factor is the person itself

Search for courses

You'll find something that you like

Need some advice

What state should I stay when I arrive in the US? I'm concerned about money. Need a cheap place to stay

Generally speaking the south is cheaper

Yeah, thought so

My biggest concerned Is how much money I should get to have a good start

Rent, car, food, internet, etc

South is definitely cheaper

Cost of living is lower, for one. Healthcare is better in the north.

Sounds good

A cheap place until I manage to enlist

My father lost his job

He's getting old

And probably will not be able to retire soon

We're never been close to each other, but I feel sorry for him

Just bored. Got no friends irl

You know what's a great way to spend a night? Sitting with my back against the wall and a bottle in one hand, a glass in the other. Somewhere along the line I fucked up and nothing has been right ever since. Maybe it won't ever be right. Something got messed up, but hey I tried my best right? 21 years I fought alone to earn what I had and now its crumbling down bit by bit. Dunno if I can, or if its worth salvaging. Just gonna finish this bottle and hit the sack for now

Continue fighting

If you really want, fight for it

I don't know when I'll be able to get to US, with who, how much money, and where

But one thing I know for sure is that I ain't getting nothing if I just sit my arse on the bed all the time

@Foxhound keep going, friend. I hate to see fellas like that

New mexico is cheap, low standard of liv8jg, plus open carry state, we actually have lqx gun laws out here

Bunch of crime and property theft. Atleast in Albuquerque. Go tocthe smaller towns and it gets better

>low standard of living
>rip

States a shithole man, we are last in education and first in auto theft

Bit its cheap to live

But on plus side, lax gun laws

Sounds like a bad version of Texas

Yeah. More like the wild west, at least abq is

Southern Texas too

Except for San Antonio

Beautiful city

Would live northern side of Texas tho

Arizona is pretty cheap... Hell, I even got me 2 acres....

Only benefit of New Mexico is the Illegal Immigrant rodeos

Ye

And those weird ass tacos, you know the ones I mean 🔥🔥🔥

I dont need a flamethrower in my pants, ty tho.

FIRECOCK FIRECOCK does whatever a FIRECOCK does

Dumb joke, I know

If your cock is feeling like fire call a priest

A techpriest. Flesh is weak.

^ I have problems with this sort of AUDACITY

(deus vult intensifies)

seriously though that is some real cumsock shit

It’s been bothering me for a while now

More people need to be mad

*Gestapo watching continues*

*laughs in pagan*

*chuckles in pagan*

*Laughs in triskelion*

Someone say pagan?

*laughs in Baltic crusades*

*Laughs in our savior is a dead jew*

*Oh snap*

*laughs in christianity was a plot to control the poor by the Romans*

*laughs in christcucks constantly molesting children*

And here we go again

@Foxhound what was the name of that cuck?

Which one

We literally roasted him

Theres been like 9 I've nuked so far

Moses

No

I think

Uhm

I didn't have thr opportunity to roast him

Idk then

I dont keep a kill list lmao