Big F

She’s alright tho

Fuck that group anyway. They were shitty people

true enough

I find psychs alone are best tbh

microdosing with a group or a party is chill though

It can be fun as long as everyone is chill

Nice, I've got some gels im gonna be getting from an old roommate that loves psychs as much as I do. Once im fully transitioned into this new job im going in for the interview tomorrow, will definitely be enjoying it on a day off.

Micro dose (1-3 tabs) is nice for group settings, anything more is best done alone or with one other person

Set and setting are key

I can always tell once I’m fucked up who’s a good person and who isn’t

Same here. You just read their vibes so much more

Yeh

And being levels apart can be. . .

off putting

Totally. Like I’d someone can’t handle their shit it’s throws the vibe off

Like I’ll help you but don’t lock yourself in the bathroom

I don't run into that in all honesty, I prefer being on a higher level, as I am more used to the experience and have had the infamous ego death happen (first time on 3 I genuinely saw myself die when I flashed back to the moment I dropped and just saw myself lying there dead, caused me and a buddy to walk 3 miles in the rain back to where we started the trip lol) so it helps me because it gives those around me the feeling of safety in that they're not going to actually die, as I've survived more and I'm still stable enough to function on higher doses. If im with rookies, I go for 3 and only give them 1 unless they're comfortable and ready

is *that* what the ego death is??

It's where your mind separates from the concept of self

because I definitely remember lying in bed coming down, and feeling as if I was lying by a tree, on some moss forest floor, and my body washed with the rain and the groundwater and the seasons until I melted into the Earth

it was only a brief 5 minute sensation, but it's as close to feeling yourself rot as I can / could imagine

It's different for everyone. It's when you realize that everything is part of the greater whole and as life begins it will end all the same and continue on within a cycle

Least that's how I interpret it

hmm. . . see that's what fucks with me - I'm still extremely egotistical - or probably carry myself that way. . . but I've most definitely seen and dreamt along those. . . connections. . . idk, it's hard to explain - but when you can see what everyone's thinking / is. . .

Like, the first time I dropped acid, I did it pretty much by myself, and from 0000 to 0300, the patterns in everyone's faces ( see : *blemishes, birthmarks, tonal changes, etc* ) became space and nebulae and their eyes were stars

like, not *literally* but *vividly*, gleaming in

tl dr ; I dun a big think - but I'm not a very hippy

Ooooh. See my first trip was more of a fun jaunt through something akin to the Vegas strip. Everything was lit up and gorgeous. Saw amazing sights and then went home and relaxed and watched everything move and twist and swirl

oh - trust me

the peak was . . . 👌

But I went in not knowing what to expect at all

I bet lol

but, the rest of the evening was soemthing else

I stepped onnanail actually

like. . .

Ouch

Not recommended

> be me
> 24
> take 1 tab acid
> first time
> watch movie til shit's actually obviously moving
> the woodpanel ceiling over the loft in my shack glows blue into space
> gear up for walk to beach
> 1500 ft - nothin
> go through small woody bush trail to cut through closed campground
> LOTR OST in my head cause ga DAMN
> finally make it out ( literally 10 ft of bush lmfao )
> light red candle
> see light reflect orange off everything within 50 ft
> make it to beach
> can see sky reverberate with wind
> cloud front coming in over the water
> everything glows blue
> the stars dance and shimmer
> and the wind is coming in at me increasingly
> crawl back home
> make it
> mfw **FUCK YEAH**
> mfw need to refill water and get snacks
> mfw see friend outside
> mfw b-line for friend to pay him back
> mfw that's a 2x4 with a nail in it
> mfw thats my shoe stuck to it
> mfw MOTHER **FUCKER** and everyone gives me Hydro Perox and Silver Nitrate
> mfw rest of the trip is "yo. I gotta get a Tshot tomorrow. what if I'm too late. what if they cut off my foot. oh man. growing old is losing pieces. oh man. oh geez."

was a good time 👌

I can relate to the whole bush scene

man - that whole trip was an adventure.

I full on felt like the Hobbits when they're hiding from the Rider