Like I’ll help you but don’t lock yourself in the bathroom

I don't run into that in all honesty, I prefer being on a higher level, as I am more used to the experience and have had the infamous ego death happen (first time on 3 I genuinely saw myself die when I flashed back to the moment I dropped and just saw myself lying there dead, caused me and a buddy to walk 3 miles in the rain back to where we started the trip lol) so it helps me because it gives those around me the feeling of safety in that they're not going to actually die, as I've survived more and I'm still stable enough to function on higher doses. If im with rookies, I go for 3 and only give them 1 unless they're comfortable and ready

is *that* what the ego death is??

It's where your mind separates from the concept of self

because I definitely remember lying in bed coming down, and feeling as if I was lying by a tree, on some moss forest floor, and my body washed with the rain and the groundwater and the seasons until I melted into the Earth

it was only a brief 5 minute sensation, but it's as close to feeling yourself rot as I can / could imagine

It's different for everyone. It's when you realize that everything is part of the greater whole and as life begins it will end all the same and continue on within a cycle

Least that's how I interpret it

hmm. . . see that's what fucks with me - I'm still extremely egotistical - or probably carry myself that way. . . but I've most definitely seen and dreamt along those. . . connections. . . idk, it's hard to explain - but when you can see what everyone's thinking / is. . .

Like, the first time I dropped acid, I did it pretty much by myself, and from 0000 to 0300, the patterns in everyone's faces ( see : *blemishes, birthmarks, tonal changes, etc* ) became space and nebulae and their eyes were stars

like, not *literally* but *vividly*, gleaming in

tl dr ; I dun a big think - but I'm not a very hippy

Ooooh. See my first trip was more of a fun jaunt through something akin to the Vegas strip. Everything was lit up and gorgeous. Saw amazing sights and then went home and relaxed and watched everything move and twist and swirl

oh - trust me

the peak was . . . 👌

But I went in not knowing what to expect at all

I bet lol

but, the rest of the evening was soemthing else

I stepped onnanail actually

like. . .

Ouch

Not recommended

> be me
> 24
> take 1 tab acid
> first time
> watch movie til shit's actually obviously moving
> the woodpanel ceiling over the loft in my shack glows blue into space
> gear up for walk to beach
> 1500 ft - nothin
> go through small woody bush trail to cut through closed campground
> LOTR OST in my head cause ga DAMN
> finally make it out ( literally 10 ft of bush lmfao )
> light red candle
> see light reflect orange off everything within 50 ft
> make it to beach
> can see sky reverberate with wind
> cloud front coming in over the water
> everything glows blue
> the stars dance and shimmer
> and the wind is coming in at me increasingly
> crawl back home
> make it
> mfw **FUCK YEAH**
> mfw need to refill water and get snacks
> mfw see friend outside
> mfw b-line for friend to pay him back
> mfw that's a 2x4 with a nail in it
> mfw thats my shoe stuck to it
> mfw MOTHER **FUCKER** and everyone gives me Hydro Perox and Silver Nitrate
> mfw rest of the trip is "yo. I gotta get a Tshot tomorrow. what if I'm too late. what if they cut off my foot. oh man. growing old is losing pieces. oh man. oh geez."

was a good time 👌

I can relate to the whole bush scene

man - that whole trip was an adventure.

I full on felt like the Hobbits when they're hiding from the Rider

but like, not as creepy and kino and more "" holy fuck wurrz me swod ""

I’m dying

b r u h

I was trip sitting a big group one time, had about two first timers and three that had their feet wet so to speak. I decided to do 5 that night and needless to say that's my limit for being a guide. Had one that went very very south and relapsed on self harming (was unaware of anything that was going on in that regard prior as it was a long while since they did that last) and it took about 3 hours, some cool visuals on the tv, and some cleaning up to get everyone back into a good state of mind.

First trip, walked 8 hours all around my town clutching onto a cup of water as if it were nectar of ambrosia and was being guided by my older brothers through a magical wonderland of lights and colors

the next time I did acid

I mixed it with shrooms and ran across the beach barefoot - started tripping that I cut open my foot **again**. I didn't but I was sure I DID.

sorry sorry

the "" That's my limit for being a guide "" got me a laugh - holy fuck.

what timeaday was that walk?

I find dropping about an hour before sunset onnaclear day is key

you get the sunlight, a good sunset, and then the night

8pm until like 4am

noice

Real trippy hours

Oh yeah, plus downtown has so many lights and pretty historic architecture