It's well worth it for the experience. It tastes like shit and you never want to know what is used in the extraction, plus it hurts your lungs, but it's beautiful what it can show you

Molly is definitely fun, but I was a stupid kid and mixed with things I shouldn't have and it about caused a heart attack

Yeah been there

Large crowds and people with anxiety don’t mix. Had a chick we were raving with have a seizure

I've never come close to ODing thankfully - but I heard after I left the traphouse, we found out most our coke supply was fented - so that might explain the cracks in my brain I feel

but I went

weed
mushrooms
acid
coke
molly

and now I just juggle n dabble here n there

got 2 tabs set aside for a nice weekend sometime

Big F

She’s alright tho

Fuck that group anyway. They were shitty people

true enough

I find psychs alone are best tbh

microdosing with a group or a party is chill though

It can be fun as long as everyone is chill

Nice, I've got some gels im gonna be getting from an old roommate that loves psychs as much as I do. Once im fully transitioned into this new job im going in for the interview tomorrow, will definitely be enjoying it on a day off.

Micro dose (1-3 tabs) is nice for group settings, anything more is best done alone or with one other person

Set and setting are key

I can always tell once I’m fucked up who’s a good person and who isn’t

Same here. You just read their vibes so much more

Yeh

And being levels apart can be. . .

off putting

Totally. Like I’d someone can’t handle their shit it’s throws the vibe off

Like I’ll help you but don’t lock yourself in the bathroom

I don't run into that in all honesty, I prefer being on a higher level, as I am more used to the experience and have had the infamous ego death happen (first time on 3 I genuinely saw myself die when I flashed back to the moment I dropped and just saw myself lying there dead, caused me and a buddy to walk 3 miles in the rain back to where we started the trip lol) so it helps me because it gives those around me the feeling of safety in that they're not going to actually die, as I've survived more and I'm still stable enough to function on higher doses. If im with rookies, I go for 3 and only give them 1 unless they're comfortable and ready

is *that* what the ego death is??

It's where your mind separates from the concept of self

because I definitely remember lying in bed coming down, and feeling as if I was lying by a tree, on some moss forest floor, and my body washed with the rain and the groundwater and the seasons until I melted into the Earth

it was only a brief 5 minute sensation, but it's as close to feeling yourself rot as I can / could imagine

It's different for everyone. It's when you realize that everything is part of the greater whole and as life begins it will end all the same and continue on within a cycle

Least that's how I interpret it

hmm. . . see that's what fucks with me - I'm still extremely egotistical - or probably carry myself that way. . . but I've most definitely seen and dreamt along those. . . connections. . . idk, it's hard to explain - but when you can see what everyone's thinking / is. . .

Like, the first time I dropped acid, I did it pretty much by myself, and from 0000 to 0300, the patterns in everyone's faces ( see : *blemishes, birthmarks, tonal changes, etc* ) became space and nebulae and their eyes were stars

like, not *literally* but *vividly*, gleaming in

tl dr ; I dun a big think - but I'm not a very hippy

Ooooh. See my first trip was more of a fun jaunt through something akin to the Vegas strip. Everything was lit up and gorgeous. Saw amazing sights and then went home and relaxed and watched everything move and twist and swirl

oh - trust me

the peak was . . . 👌

But I went in not knowing what to expect at all

I bet lol

but, the rest of the evening was soemthing else

I stepped onnanail actually

like. . .

Ouch