So does everything else. For you

im thinking ahead unlike most males

no, you are thinking to extremes, thinking ahead would be taking preventive steps like we mentioned earlier

and if those all fail (With my luck they will) I know what to do

my life is pretty meaningless anyways so if i died tomarrow not much lost

it is really hard to get a girl pregnant with the snip, and if you do want kids later, the procedure is reversible

I was never really suicidal before my dad kept saying he was gonna kill himself and not doing it so many times

now its kinda rubbed off on me a bit

you will continue to get no where if you continue to wallow in self pity, the only way you get anywhere is to try and be more productive with your life.

what self pitty

you're acting like you're already locked in for 18 years

24 soon to be 25 years has been long enough

No I mean you're acting like you're already on the line for child support

im way past that conversation

im talking about my retarded ass life and how if it ended tomarrow i would have no problem with that

well only you are responsible for your own life, the only way to improve it is to embrace a more positive outlook and get on with it, it's not unique to you, it is much the same for everyone, and if you are really struggling that bad, you need to go and get professional help from someone trained in psychology, if it is clinical depression, you may need medication to help balance out the chemicals in your mind.

whatever

I'm of the opinion that the point of life is sifting through the bad times to savor the good

Find what makes you happy and don't compromise on it, enjoy it as much as you can

I mean like actually happy, not artificial happiness like drugs

If you're depressed and stuff it's obviously not your fault, maybe you can get on meds to help, but getting motivated in the first place is the big problem

I just got switched from a produce position at my job i loved to a lame ass dishwasher position and i want to drink the cleaning chemicals

i want to guzzle those fuckers so hard

thats the underlying problem

im sorry for being a depressed sack o' shit

I've been depressed almost my entire life and I've been through what you're experiencing, I wanted to die every day for years, but eventually you have to come to the realization that the only way out is up

up to the attic?

True. I was driving Lyft and Uber full time for almost a year. At first I loved it but it just didn't pay eniugh. By the time I stopped I hated it.

Now I make aot more money back in my previous field of work

And when I was homeless that was really rough

But only way out was up

up where?

where the fuck is up?

I think he means it can't get much worse

Unless he's talking about god or something

this entire conversation is worse than bashing my skull against the concrete wall in my basement

i can video me doing it if you want

Why would we want to see that?

i dunno it could be entertaining

Not really

Yeah, I'd rather not see that, it sounds painful