Message from @Higura
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Hopefully things turn out well bud
Hope so too
But if i can be a bit personal for a bit, it's how disturbed i am over how i took the whole situation
I took this whole mess in a way that i can't describe like i jist accepted what happened immediately
No tears, no depression just sorta "guess this is something i have to deal with now" sorta way and I'm kinda disgusted with my self for it
Damn dude
Don't worry about it
It's okay to feel everything's still unreal
One of the thoughts i had after finding out about this too was "am i gonna have to cancel my plans with my friends now" my family is about to risk loosing custody of my child and I'm over here worried about whether or not imma be able to get shitfaced and watch the shitty resident evil movies
What the actual fuck is wrong with me
If you're surprised
Or / and disturbed about it
Don't think you need to worry too much about it
About not feeling how you 'should' feel
There is nothing wrong with you
Yeah
It's normal
I had the same feeling when my mother went half disabled
She couldn't move on her own without support for 4ish months
Jesus
Kidney failure followed by strokes
I was too busy working to spend time with her while she was in the hospital
I still beat myself up over it
She cried the whole night during that period because she was in pain
So I had to massage her legs throughout the night
She bought me an Xbox so we could play video games together, but I was too busy to play
I massaged her legs at night and slept through the day
And strangely enough I wasn't sad or anything
I was disturbed by that too
So texted an apology to her, but she had previously died earlier in the night
I was upset, but part of me was angry that I had to have a responsibility to take care of her funeral
I'm sorry for your loss vic
It was years ago m8. Thanks though
I'm sorry vic
Just know that you'll feel the way you are
Yeah
And hope your mother is doing better corin
Thanks
She's the strongest person that I have ever seen
Because it's natural for people to not want to change things