Hopefully things turn out well bud

Hope so too

But if i can be a bit personal for a bit, it's how disturbed i am over how i took the whole situation

I took this whole mess in a way that i can't describe like i jist accepted what happened immediately

No tears, no depression just sorta "guess this is something i have to deal with now" sorta way and I'm kinda disgusted with my self for it

Damn dude

Don't worry about it

It's okay to feel everything's still unreal

One of the thoughts i had after finding out about this too was "am i gonna have to cancel my plans with my friends now" my family is about to risk loosing custody of my child and I'm over here worried about whether or not imma be able to get shitfaced and watch the shitty resident evil movies

What the actual fuck is wrong with me

If you're surprised

Or / and disturbed about it

Don't think you need to worry too much about it

About not feeling how you 'should' feel

There is nothing wrong with you

Yeah

It's normal

I had the same feeling when my mother went half disabled

She couldn't move on her own without support for 4ish months

Jesus

My mom was the same way

Kidney failure followed by strokes

I was too busy working to spend time with her while she was in the hospital

I still beat myself up over it

She cried the whole night during that period because she was in pain

So I had to massage her legs throughout the night

She bought me an Xbox so we could play video games together, but I was too busy to play

I massaged her legs at night and slept through the day

And strangely enough I wasn't sad or anything

I was disturbed by that too

So texted an apology to her, but she had previously died earlier in the night

I was upset, but part of me was angry that I had to have a responsibility to take care of her funeral

I'm sorry for your loss vic

It was years ago m8. Thanks though

I'm sorry vic

Just know that you'll feel the way you are

Yeah

And hope your mother is doing better corin

Thanks

She's the strongest person that I have ever seen