Don't think you need to worry too much about it

About not feeling how you 'should' feel

There is nothing wrong with you

Yeah

It's normal

I had the same feeling when my mother went half disabled

She couldn't move on her own without support for 4ish months

Jesus

My mom was the same way

Kidney failure followed by strokes

I was too busy working to spend time with her while she was in the hospital

I still beat myself up over it

She cried the whole night during that period because she was in pain

So I had to massage her legs throughout the night

She bought me an Xbox so we could play video games together, but I was too busy to play

I massaged her legs at night and slept through the day

And strangely enough I wasn't sad or anything

I was disturbed by that too

So texted an apology to her, but she had previously died earlier in the night

I was upset, but part of me was angry that I had to have a responsibility to take care of her funeral

I'm sorry for your loss vic

It was years ago m8. Thanks though

I'm sorry vic

Just know that you'll feel the way you are

Yeah

And hope your mother is doing better corin

Thanks

She's the strongest person that I have ever seen

Because it's natural for people to not want to change things

Repetition is safe

Because she went up the stairs 17 story apartment 7 times a day

As soon as she recovered a bit

I just wanna let you know it's completely fine to feel

Surprisingly not surprised

Or not sad

Because that's the one of the way people take tragedies

I've never had any family beyond my mom and grandpa

And they're both dead.

Probably why I'm a black pilled doomer

I hope someday you'll find your peace vic

Sorry for your loss