Fuck

This is why i say I'm not a good person

its okay

I don't feel I'm a good person either

Coworker is now actively flirting lol

I'm like a good person at times

And a piece of shit as well

@SheepTeeth ayy nice

@SheepTeeth congrats fam

@SheepTeeth Im Rootin for ya, go get em

also hope it works out

@Some Polish-Hungarian Guy Im sure your a wonderful person

@SheepTeeth A lot of guys are uncomfortable at first until they get a clear message. Lots of women will dance around it because they know they can get guys to do things for them as long as they keep giving mixed signals. When you're going to go for something, it's best that you make up your own mind about what that is, and just go straight for it. Don't go with innuendo, or *oh you know*, none of that vaguely suggeustive dialogue is useful in a healthy relationship.

That is the kind of shit that makes me usually avoid dating younger because almost all of them do nothing but that, and make up all kinds of justifications for it. When all it really boils down to is a lack of confidence, and not being knowledgeable enough about their own wants to be able to communicate them. Yet they'll often say "that's just how women are", when that's total bull shit. It's super toxic to leave your partner in a state of always guessing. Take as much of the guess work out as you can.

Also, most guys really don't give a shit how you look. There's a lot of things women will tell you are good to do that just don't matter, or are bad ideas all together. What men are looking for is someone they can trust, and feel comfortable being vulnerable around. It is fucking exhausting keeping your gaurd high 24/7. A lot of men like to be alone because that is often the ONLY time in their entire lives they get to do that. When a guy shows weakeness: they are often punished sevearly for it.

Contact throughout the day is fine, no contact for days causes anxiety. Where that sweet spot is varries.

Don't get too into your head about trying to micromanage everything you do. Just be open about what you're feeling and you'll find something that works. Men have a harder time with this, so you might have to pry a little, but they tend to be pretty honest when they do open up. Women will try to sugar coat it much more than a man is going to. If a man is sugar coating something: you're probably only getting half of it. Same with women, really.

There is no fairy tale. It's best to go in expecting nothing. Lets you see much more clearly what it is rather than what it isn't.

I can't say how much of this will map onto your merchant, but I pay attention and these are some pretty consistent observations. Take it with a grain of salt though.

I don't think I really need to cover red flags. You have a brain, I trust that you've figured out how to use it by now.

Fuck i was on some doomer shit earlier

It's hard not to be

Yeah guess that's anotherthing i was open about for the first time in a while

At least I'm starting be a bit more open about my feara and anxiety

Everyone has it. We're all born staring down the barrel of the void. Every time you do open up though, it's risky. Have to build yourself up enough to do it knowing you'll probably be lashed immediaetly for it. Though it sometimes really pays off in the long run.

I really miss my older sister.

And I genuinely consider myself to be permanently incomplete without her guidance.

I don't know of a good way to handle loss. It always is heavy. After a while you just try to not remember it all of the time.

She's not dead.

oh, lol

I abandoned her, if anything she must believe me dead.

any context for that?

I am an extremely poisonous person.

So I just left her life entirely, because the drag of my ties could have harmed her and I did not want to be responsible for that.

I also got rid of my ties and contacts.

altruistic enough

what is preventing you from seeing her again then?

Myself.

I can still monitor her to an extent.

I simply refuse to step anywhere near her again.

Me home

Oh lord almighty

No

He did this thing for a while where he would creep around the corners of the kitchen see me and hiss "yaaaaaaaassss"

So how'd things went

Oh

Kek