Don't get too into your head about trying to micromanage everything you do. Just be open about what you're feeling and you'll find something that works. Men have a harder time with this, so you might have to pry a little, but they tend to be pretty honest when they do open up. Women will try to sugar coat it much more than a man is going to. If a man is sugar coating something: you're probably only getting half of it. Same with women, really.

There is no fairy tale. It's best to go in expecting nothing. Lets you see much more clearly what it is rather than what it isn't.

I can't say how much of this will map onto your merchant, but I pay attention and these are some pretty consistent observations. Take it with a grain of salt though.

I don't think I really need to cover red flags. You have a brain, I trust that you've figured out how to use it by now.

Fuck i was on some doomer shit earlier

It's hard not to be

Yeah guess that's anotherthing i was open about for the first time in a while

At least I'm starting be a bit more open about my feara and anxiety

Everyone has it. We're all born staring down the barrel of the void. Every time you do open up though, it's risky. Have to build yourself up enough to do it knowing you'll probably be lashed immediaetly for it. Though it sometimes really pays off in the long run.

I really miss my older sister.

And I genuinely consider myself to be permanently incomplete without her guidance.

I don't know of a good way to handle loss. It always is heavy. After a while you just try to not remember it all of the time.

She's not dead.

oh, lol

I abandoned her, if anything she must believe me dead.

any context for that?

I am an extremely poisonous person.

So I just left her life entirely, because the drag of my ties could have harmed her and I did not want to be responsible for that.

I also got rid of my ties and contacts.

altruistic enough

what is preventing you from seeing her again then?

Myself.

I can still monitor her to an extent.

I simply refuse to step anywhere near her again.

Me home

Oh lord almighty

No

He did this thing for a while where he would creep around the corners of the kitchen see me and hiss "yaaaaaaaassss"

So how'd things went

Oh

Kek

I told him that if he's going to make funny noises and say quotes, he's gotta quote Borat

And that puzzled him

Hmm. Probably should have said "darkhumored" instead

*no*

*I love Borat*

Sasha Baron Cohen is my major celebrity crush

is good movie

one of the few I don't regret seeing in a theater

I want to get him to do the "VARY NICE" thing

I need to read what you wrote sleepy but I need to grab a food

ok

I have read

Yeah, part of the reason why I prefer older men is that they have much more realistic expectations when it comes to women and relationships, no offense my dudes