Also going to jail or getting diabetes are my two other main fears.

Why would you go to jail

Trucking is full of liability

A guy got life in prison because his brakes failed and plowed through 20 cars killing a bunch of people

Christ

Do you check your breaks on the regular now

He was legally responsible for the proper maintenance of his vehicle, but you can't find everything in a pretrip inspection, sometimes shit happens while you're driving

Yeah

I do an inspection at the begining of every shift and do maintenance check ups at a shop every 6 months

Huh

Or if I fall asleep at the wheel or not paying attention or miss something as I'm merging I could kill someone

I'm very good about it, but it only takes one mistake out of a years and possibly decades long career to end it all

That possibility is always looming over your head but you just gotta keep going and burry your anxiety

I trust my judgement and skills

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RARli-Pufvw Incredibly depressing

Thank you doggor for the support and advice

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@country doggo I suggest doing a professional course on diesel mechanics

You'll like it

And learn a lot

Will look into it

Feels nice to help out in the garden today, helped make my peeps a lot happier.

My friend was just a social drinker a few months ago and now he's pretty much an alcoholic. God fucking damnit I hate this shit I dont want to lose another person to booze.

I need to stop drinking

I drank almost every day when I was home

Just taper it off slowly if you're dependent. Unless you got a good reason, there should be no reason to drink.

Just makes me feel good

I've heard that so many times it's not funny anymore.

God I'm gonna die out here

Gotta make yourself a long-term plan to work towards and look foward too, otherwise you start thinking of shit like that

https://youtu.be/uHaHnWVS5Uw

We forgot lads
https://youtu.be/3F0BYReH3RA

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#1

I need a new job

Why?

It's too physically stressful for me and I'm convinced everyone hates me

Kitchen work is a pain, yes

My attractionto my coworker won't ever be reciprocated either and that makes me want to kill myself, I can feel him distancing himself from me and it feels really bad

We have to do the dishes for approximately 3 restaurants as a 3 person team

It's too much