I need a new job

Why?

It's too physically stressful for me and I'm convinced everyone hates me

Kitchen work is a pain, yes

My attractionto my coworker won't ever be reciprocated either and that makes me want to kill myself, I can feel him distancing himself from me and it feels really bad

We have to do the dishes for approximately 3 restaurants as a 3 person team

It's too much

Thats okay. I know that sounds shit, but that feeling is something you risk every time you put yourself out there for anything

Better to get to know when its not everything on the line

And better to know for sure if a dream can be tangible

To be left guessing is hell too

The only positive affirmation in my life is my cat

cat

He won't say

It's stupid, im dumb

cats > real life

Sat in my car for an hour and cried uncontrollably and dissociated, clocked out 2 hours early like a pussy

First couple times are rough

If i get brain damage to the point of not understanding the most basic concepts can i be happy knowing disability pays rent

I want another job, it's too much

Clocking out of cognition one vaccine at a time.

That i cant weigh in on

Wouldnt hurt trying to land a lower stress job while your still working

I want out of where I am, have for years. I like my boss, but I'm just burnt as fuck on the job. Absolute zombie at work.

I'm sorry to hear sheep. Sorry about what happened between yoi and your co-worker, and i hope you're able to get a new jon if you do decied to quit your current one..but please for the love of god don't kill yourself over one guy

I dont think she will

You never know sometimes

Just new to the faggot organ that is the heart

Not heart

Dumb brain

I'm high functioning ocd so I get obsessed over people and things to the point of hurting myself

If I compared the particular perspective to an annihilating beam that seeks to destroy all in sight: would that be an accurate comparison?

I guess

Also im a little bothered for other reasons

oof

Job situation sounds rough

There's a guy here, a janitor, he kinda tried to flirt with me last night and he was just sitting in front if my car fucking leering at me

Egh

The lead in to a depressive slump usually goes something like that. Can be a few reasons, but tuning diet can help. Gut microbiome has a lot of play on mood. Esp after poor diet due to depression.

Don't drink when you're sad bois

I'm just going to brush it off as my bad mood and taking things the wrong way because im upset but I didn't like that look