Message from @Kori_603

Discord ID: 618627258474561536


2019-09-04 00:12:04 UTC  

Like amerikek said. When you've come to the realisation that a "friend" isn't really someone you can trust the best thing to do is cut em off

2019-09-04 00:12:30 UTC  

It can be painful but for your own mental health it's usually the besy option

2019-09-04 00:12:48 UTC  

It's hard to part ways with a nigga who claims neutrality in another shitpost war in the group, but is obviously picking sides.

I felt like a little boy in the way I contacted him. I tried to be a cordial as possible but he said I was being a pseudo-intellectual, told me to knock it off.

I've never felt the world spin so quickly as it was yesterday. My head hurts, my heart hurts, and even if I part ways, there'll be an empty spot in there. I've never felt abandonment like this in a long time.

Never am I able to fit in with a solid group, I feel as if I stick and cling, I am used and exhausted, then I am tossed aside for somebody new and funnier.

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/462997453181026307/618599309281329155/Saulden.png

2019-09-04 00:13:28 UTC  

Found your problem
>fit in

2019-09-04 00:14:25 UTC  

Maybe I should've known this beforehand. The answer was right there and I fuckin' fell for it. Like a dump-ass trap. I feel like an idiot to be baited like this.

2019-09-04 00:14:46 UTC  

most of my best friends have attacked me over shit before. I've been the "bad guy" many times, but they respect me because during those times I refuse to give in and will hold my ground until the bloody end. But they know by now that when I do that: I'm dead ass convinced of something, and it's probably not without good reason.

2019-09-04 00:18:19 UTC  

I envy that kind of shit. With the group that I was in, I was always forced to relent. Because i'm too childish, too young, too stupid to know these things. They kept anointing themselves as the judge and decider of everything within the group. However I finally had enough and I put my foot down by messaging him about the stuff he's been saying.

I don't want to post his name here, or anything of the sort, but he replied with a drastic statement
"I don't even know how to properly respond to that, I'll just stay out of the VC."

Almost immediately after, he moved to another server where his old friends were - or, friend was, and has left the chat that we were originally in.

2019-09-04 00:20:03 UTC  

tbh, don't worry about who follows you or anything like that. Just work on you, and be unappologetic about it. Good people respect that when they see it because they know exactly how hard it is.

2019-09-04 00:23:06 UTC  

Maine, I'll be honest with you. At times like this, you need to be confident, if you know what you're doing or saying is right, then there's no reason to back down. I myself have never fit in any groups at all. I'm insulted, hated on, and generally disliked because I'm "toxic". I've backed down many times, and still to this day I can't argue properly, I've been in the same predicament as you, and it's just shit. If I had one piece of advice to you, it'd be to fight for what's right and to focus rather on the good aspects rather than spin your heads over the bad.

2019-09-04 00:23:48 UTC  

Shit isn't always easy in life, there's downs and ups constantly happening in today's world. But so long as you keep trying, you'll eventually get to the good parts.

2019-09-04 00:24:04 UTC  

I would definitely say you fit in here, that's for sure.

2019-09-04 00:24:10 UTC  

^

2019-09-04 00:29:03 UTC  

I don't think being fiercely unapologetic about things will be the right tool for this, however a balance must be met. Kindness has a place likewise does Cruelness. I've tried to apply both aspects but i'm either seen too soft, or too harsh on people. Hopefully by the time i'm older, I'll finally be able to figure out what makes myself tick, because i've only figured out a small bit of myself.

Anyways, I love the community here. I'm glad i'm moderating and giving advice. We shitpost hard but we're willing to open our arms if that's what is necessary.

Thanks boys. This'll probably be just another road-bump in my life but it'll be with me for a while until I learn to get over being scorned.

2019-09-04 00:30:26 UTC  

what helps is worrying less about the other people. Instead ask yourself about the way you'd want to be treated, and go ahead with that in mind.

2019-09-04 00:30:34 UTC  

^^^

2019-09-04 00:30:41 UTC  

Good luck man, I hope you get better soon.

2019-09-04 00:31:01 UTC  

2019-09-04 00:31:01 UTC  

Wilco control. Maine out. 👍

2019-09-04 02:01:49 UTC  

Alright a bit of good news, my parents finally decided that this weekend they'll use the money they have left from the selling of my sisters car to help buy me a new one. Hate the fact that i won't be able to help pay but at least it's a start. Once i get this car I'm applying to a pizza place that needs a delivery driver. Hopefully they actually hire me. Also i almost forgot to mention yesterday it's mainly my dad that i have an issue with and not my mother, my moms actually trying to somewhat help me get off my feet `i mean it's being done poorly but she's still trying to help` while my dad well, some of you already know

2019-09-04 02:02:28 UTC  

Don’t seem to focus. Too afraid of finding out what I have from the doctors this weekend. Guys.

2019-09-04 02:03:51 UTC  

Just been re-listening to 4chan stories from Keque and trying not to think about the sore pain in my back and leg. Also I might be diagnosed with cancer.

2019-09-04 02:04:29 UTC  

It’s why I never online discord and don’t really talk as much

2019-09-04 02:04:59 UTC  

You better not have cancer.

2019-09-04 02:05:46 UTC  

My dudes the pain is beginning to worsen

2019-09-04 02:06:07 UTC  

I’m laying down right now holding my shit on my side

2019-09-04 02:07:09 UTC  

I hope you get better. I'm sure it's not cancer. I'll be hoping for you.

2019-09-04 02:07:39 UTC  

How old you be man?

2019-09-04 02:07:54 UTC  

Like 20s? Possibly 30s?

2019-09-04 02:08:07 UTC  

22

2019-09-04 02:08:44 UTC  

I’m sure it’s not cancer, while it’s not unheard of you’re a bit young

2019-09-04 02:09:05 UTC  

Any hereditary stuff it could be?

2019-09-04 02:09:07 UTC  

The doctor said it might be testicular cancer but I’m hoping it’s not

2019-09-04 02:09:20 UTC  

Gonna find out this weekend

2019-09-04 02:10:12 UTC  

Prayers go out to you man, hopefully something easily solvable and nothing bad

2019-09-04 02:10:49 UTC  

Hope the results come back clean, try to stay strong in the mean time.

2019-09-04 02:11:51 UTC  

Ain’t gonna lie but I have been having these pains since 18 and now it’s coming back worse like at first it was turn off and on pains and they were soft pains

2019-09-04 02:12:46 UTC  

Could be a kidney stone or something of the sort, have a friend who had the same signs

2019-09-04 02:13:21 UTC  

You said you’re holding your side?

2019-09-04 02:13:33 UTC  

@noobypropmaker Is there any possible jobs in walking distance? Fast Food, Walgreens, Grocer? stuff where you can work a counter

2019-09-04 02:13:52 UTC  

Pizza places will basically destroy your car

2019-09-04 02:14:15 UTC  

@Foogals not really, live on the edge of town