Message from @Sam Amari
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What is the composition of your metal bar?
so i got released the day of the superbowl, and in germany it was on at like 1am, so i stayed up til like 5am. it was also the game where the lights went out for like an hour so i was up super late. but i was so glad to be out of the hospital and hear like american voies man. the particular hospital i was in was in Berlin
eh......niners.........okay I remember reading about that
so in Berlin... the part i was in was the russian part, so most of my nurses just knew russian and german as opposed to russian and english
so i had to learn lots of words
which one was when that guy from the Seahawks went on a rant "Don't you EVER talk about me!!!"
the one i remember most is schmerzen
ill never forget that one
LOL
Richard Sherman
that's right
tbh man im so conflicted. i look back at my mom and she went through some shit with me in Germany and temper tantrums that i had being so frustrated by my situation. but at this point in time shes decided to exile me for what i feel is a completely asinine reason. maybe shes having financial troubles i dont know abut and she cant afford to keep helping me but i really doub tthat.
its not like im trying to be a leech, i just literally have never had a job that made enough to afford my medical stuff. i mean, i had surgery every summer i should have had internships. i just dont have the absolute greatest resume
Hey.....at this point....you have to worry about you at the moment
Mom and family will have to work themselves out in due time.
@Sam Amari and?
And it will
when i get this stressed i just dont have an appetite. part of it is cuz there's always like a permanent "pressing" or restricted feeling on my chest from the metal bars that i had in there and when i get really full, its painful in a way that it wasnt before i had the surgery
im feeling sorry for myself for sure. but i really cant put together like a vision of what i need to do
No need to sorry, @Sam Amari just keep talking. You need this
my bad yeah i thought i was over doing it
Dont be ashamed of reveal your weakness
its just fucked man. i would never wish the situation where you still have to feel dependant on someone at 29 on anyone. but i had literally no control over my medical situation being what it is. i was just born
Sam......this is going to take a little time to get over with........I just want you when you close up for the night to know that you are indeed cared for, and have value to quite a few gents here
i think of moms who have kids with downs syndrome or other horrible things that have to take care of them their whole life. its not like ive been anywhere near that much of a leech. ive always had a job its just never enough for me to afford everything in the hellish fucking expensive as time we live in
right....and moms / dads with special need kids and adults are not perfect either Sam. They have their cahllenges too
*challenges
yeah
i have definitely said a lot of shit to my mom. blamed her for my situation and shit.
It’s better to not feel hateful in this situation
I had a decent upbringing, and I STILL fell into drugs.....and I knew better, was raised better..........sometimes things cannot be explained in an answer, and yet we all want a cut n dry explaination. It's really hard
Now I just thought something, @Sam Amari. You need to travel the world
yeah man. its just a lot to hear "im done helping you with your medical issues even tho i can afford to help because you said something i didnt like and then i attacked you physically"
Sam...you're angry...........don't beat yourself up.........it will heal.
@Kazemaru i've actually been to a lot of USA. and Japan and Costa Rica.
Germany obviously too but those were not fun trips
@Sam Amari and how did you felt when visiting those places?
Japan was probably the best time of my life but I probably will never be able to afford that again
I feel your sorrows man, I was prescribed aderral when I was younger cause I had “adhd”