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so i closed an account and then this shit went down before i got a new bank account
and you need to call the iunsurance, the doctors offices and get the info from them......they can direct you to other services that can help. It's a start.....and you must start somewhere my man
@Sam Amari you will be alright after a sleep
i dont really want to leave the chat but i will if u guys want me to
I wil chat with you
im listening. and i can change the subject and talk about something other than me... damn man.
until you are ready to get some rest....I am here
u guys are really great man
@Sam Amari we're your Bros, bro!
You're great and no....we cannot relate..........and its terrible right now. However, if you want to vent. I will reply
the last day that they removed the metal bars from my chest was the superbowl 49ers versus the Ravens
did the niners win?
I don't particularly like NFL, but I was in the hospital for 2 months with SHIT internet
not a footballer
I think the 49ers won
What is the composition of your metal bar?
so i got released the day of the superbowl, and in germany it was on at like 1am, so i stayed up til like 5am. it was also the game where the lights went out for like an hour so i was up super late. but i was so glad to be out of the hospital and hear like american voies man. the particular hospital i was in was in Berlin
eh......niners.........okay I remember reading about that
so in Berlin... the part i was in was the russian part, so most of my nurses just knew russian and german as opposed to russian and english
so i had to learn lots of words
the one i remember most is schmerzen
ill never forget that one
LOL
Richard Sherman
that's right
tbh man im so conflicted. i look back at my mom and she went through some shit with me in Germany and temper tantrums that i had being so frustrated by my situation. but at this point in time shes decided to exile me for what i feel is a completely asinine reason. maybe shes having financial troubles i dont know abut and she cant afford to keep helping me but i really doub tthat.
its not like im trying to be a leech, i just literally have never had a job that made enough to afford my medical stuff. i mean, i had surgery every summer i should have had internships. i just dont have the absolute greatest resume
Hey.....at this point....you have to worry about you at the moment
Mom and family will have to work themselves out in due time.
@Sam Amari and?
And it will
when i get this stressed i just dont have an appetite. part of it is cuz there's always like a permanent "pressing" or restricted feeling on my chest from the metal bars that i had in there and when i get really full, its painful in a way that it wasnt before i had the surgery
im feeling sorry for myself for sure. but i really cant put together like a vision of what i need to do
just seems hopeless
No need to sorry, @Sam Amari just keep talking. You need this
my bad yeah i thought i was over doing it
Dont be ashamed of reveal your weakness
its just fucked man. i would never wish the situation where you still have to feel dependant on someone at 29 on anyone. but i had literally no control over my medical situation being what it is. i was just born
Sam......this is going to take a little time to get over with........I just want you when you close up for the night to know that you are indeed cared for, and have value to quite a few gents here