I mean, I've tried dropping hints and little gay things like that, but im a fucking spaz and she always ends up thinking im joking

First off, slow the fuck down there chief

You aren't gonna get anywhere panicking about it

Not exactly on my brains to do list

Second off have you taken her on any dates yet

and explicitly called them DATES

No

Take your time on this bubby. I know you know this but we high emotional types always have big fucking waves of feelings. Recognizing this will help you be alert to when your PTSD is effecting you

Go ask her to go somewhere with you

Hell just make it like a walk in a park or soemthing

or something neat to go see

Write about yourself,to yourself,as if you weren't yourself.

Because im broke. And im not gonna make her pay for it.

And also, i think she'd laugh at me and i don't think im ready for that one

Yeah man - these fresh situations are rough, especially with history.

The very best thing you can do is be calm and confident.

I can help you have more control

There are plenty of free things to go see my man

Like I said literally just go to a park

or something

you don't need to spend a dollar on a date if you don't want to

A good thing to recognize and toughen your skin to,is rejection from women. After a few hyper heartbreaks like what you are going through. I said fuck it and purposely asked some 10 level women out to get used to getting rejected

and finding the victory of just facing your own mind/fears there

is fucking nice

I mean even beyond just saying fuck it, you might as well just ask her out because it'll be easier if you both end it now

if she does say no

god forbid ofc

I got tired of giving control of my emotions to these imaginary situations

The longer you drag this out the worse it gets for you homeboy

Any help at all is definitely appreciated

Im pretty used to rejection. I can usually just deal with it. It's the fact that its specifically her. I don't want HER to reject me. I don't want to push my luck and end something i could've been patient for.

Which raises another problem. Because i feel like i wait too long and they end up losing interest

You never know - she might pull a "God I have been waiting for you to ask - been dropping hints like a mf"

Or any cool free museums or public attractions near you

girls are fuckin weird dude.

literally just go now nigga

go message her and ask her

or if you can physically get ahold of her go ask her in person

like this fuckin second

you'll have more respect for yourself if just do it my guy

go

Instead of typing in this discord you could be typing a message to her right now asking her out on a date

Make her something,bitches love thoughtful shit

Shit I got my girl to be my girl by cooking for her

but that's not important