That makes sense

but he died and became my guide

How did he die? 🤔

@Nobody its cuz ive gotten carried away b4

How would a Ryan die

Frat house accident?

>externalizes everything to the point of hard larp
>shit guide telling you to hold back

Starbucks barrista murder mystery?

youre kinda fucked bro

@Nobody like i was unhealthy obsessed with studying

Back in high school I was obsessed with finding out if ghosts and shit were real. I did everything I could possibly do to invite a spirit into my house

I'm talking Ouija, Rituals, DMT trips, prayer.

^^^^^^^

what happened to me basically

@Osteos suicide

in high school I mostly just did chaos magic, making shrines for random gods shit and doing sigil stuff

it was hard to find drugs but I got my hands on weed and acid

he lived durin the salem witch trail period, he was accused of bein a witch and was harassed

real acid too

pressure became too much so he offed himself

I had a friend who got his hands on DMT

we both took a dose and

@PugThug aww, that's no fun

I wish I could find a DMT cart

those sound fun

Wait was Ryan a name in use during that peroid of time?

DMT is waaay stronger than acid

@PugThug bro, for your own mental health you need to stop externalizing your magic so much

thats how folies are made

or at least I felt like it was

^ that too

don't be a folie

well it was spelled like rian i think @Osteos

@PugThug Ryan as a name was almost definitely not in use during that peroid of time

but i say ryan cuz who the hell spells it that way

It didn't really start showing up until the 1900's

@Nobody wdym by external?

what am i doing thats external

He's saying you should focus on charting your own mind, pushing it to it's absolute limits

is that gon hurt?

lol

maybe