real acid too

pressure became too much so he offed himself

I had a friend who got his hands on DMT

we both took a dose and

@PugThug aww, that's no fun

I wish I could find a DMT cart

those sound fun

Wait was Ryan a name in use during that peroid of time?

DMT is waaay stronger than acid

@PugThug bro, for your own mental health you need to stop externalizing your magic so much

thats how folies are made

or at least I felt like it was

^ that too

don't be a folie

well it was spelled like rian i think @Osteos

@PugThug Ryan as a name was almost definitely not in use during that peroid of time

but i say ryan cuz who the hell spells it that way

It didn't really start showing up until the 1900's

@Nobody wdym by external?

what am i doing thats external

He's saying you should focus on charting your own mind, pushing it to it's absolute limits

is that gon hurt?

lol

maybe

if you fuck up, then sure

@PugThug your mind will tell itself stories that have an esoteric and exoteric way of understanding them, the whole witch trial spiel has probably a deeper meaning to you than anyone could understand, but you took it exoterically/literally/at-face-value

externalizing your magic too much will literally drive you insane

a deeper meaning?

like what kind

Right, maybe Ryan isn't so much a ghost than an invention by your own mind.

ive already thought abt that a lot @Diadact

@PugThug really only you could find that out tbh

abt him being a tulpa or some shit

but i have proof to believe that hes not

@Nobody you mean like in terms of what i could learn from it?

exactly

What lesson could you take from it

i mean i spend a lotta time in the astral w rian

oh boy

youre already into astral shit

so i dont always externalize my exp ig lol